Final Act

(Verse 1)

Meka… yeah, this the only way I figured how to speak

Got this pen bleedin' on the page, words feelin’ cold and weak

Heard through the grapevine, two mouths runnin’ with your decree

Said you wanted nothin’ more with me, just let me be, you see.

So why the ghostin’ on my stories, the peepin’ from the side?

Went down to Toronto PD, swallowed all my pride.

Coulda pressed charges, Meka, coulda made your world stand still

But the hurt inside was tangled up, ain’t no joy in the kill.

Ain’t mad about the slammer, no, that chapter’s closed and done

Life throws curveballs, baby, under this cold northern sun.

Truth is, Meka, and it cuts me like a rusty blade

The sorry’s mine, for every damn mistake I ever made.

(Chorus)

You said I’d get over you, like a tumbleweed in the breeze

Lied right to my face, darlin’, brought me to my damn knees.

Said there ain’t no second chance, slammed the door and locked it tight

Stole the last damn flicker of a desperate, dyin’ light.

Said I’d be fine, just fine, out here beneath the grey

But the truth hits harder than a bullet on a cold, dark day.

I’m at the end of my rope, Meka, ain’t no more to try

(Verse 2)

Wanted you, Meka, wanted that future in my grasp

Now this empty feelin’ got me breathin’ through a gasp.

When my buddy hit your line, my hand was shakin’ on the phone

Ready to check out of this world, leave this hurtin’ all alone.

Haven’t bothered your damn friends, kept my silence till this track

But this bond we had is shattered, ain’t no turnin’ back.

I miss your touch, your kiss, the way you fit right by my side

Miss the laughter in the streets, nowhere left for me to hide.

Miss your little girl, the future that we painted in the air

Now just ghosts and memories, a burden

(Bridge)

Said my controllin’ ways was just my age, my twisted mind

But it was fear, Meka, the fear of bein’ left behind.

Learned to tame that beast inside, but what the hell’s the use?

That promise that we made, darlin’, feels like a cruel abuse.

November twenty-eight, it echoes in my sleepin’ head

The life we planned, the vows we swore

(Verse 3)

See you movin’ on, Meka, out there lookin’ for your bliss

Woulda asked you for your hand again, even after all the pain

But this ain’t a chase no more, just this sorrow in the rain.

My mind’s made up, you always knew the stubborn kinda guy

Don’t tell me that you care now, don’t feed me that damn lie.

Don’t say I’ll find another, when you were all I craved

My motivation, Meka, the heart you up and paved.

This life I lived, the kindness shown to you and your sweet child

Wasn’t enough to hold you here, left me feelin’ exiled.

You coulda pulled me back, Meka, from this dark and lonely fall

But you made your choice, and now I’m starin’ at the wall.

I’ll always love you, yeah, that’s a truth that won’t depart

But your cold indifference just tears me right apart.

So stop your watchin’, Meka, just leave me in the me in the dust

Go live your brand new life, while my broken heart dies in the dust

(Gunshot)