(Verse 1)
(Male vocals) a gun in his hand, he clocks it back and fuckin' puts it to his head. he rings rings her phone and says (She picks up, saying,"Hello" Female vocals)
Two years 'bout gone, dust settles slow,
We still watch each other, where the cold winds blow.
Remember that day, when you swept the workplace floors?
I jumped in your path, a foolish, wild scene.
First words we exchanged, a nervous, soft plea,
Then that first date, girl, you rattled me.
Bought your daughter that bike, my hands shakin' so,
Late night whispers, where did the sweet time go?
Just hold me now, darlin', just hold me tight.
(Verse 2)
Borderline lovin', a fire and a storm,
Best kind of love, but it left me torn.
Fear of abandonment, a shadow so deep,
You called it insecure, thinking it was me, while my soul couldn't sleep.
Didn't know the shadows, the Borderline's sway,
Then the breakin' apart, you needed your space, they say.
My mind couldn't take it, those bars cold and gray,
Should've given you room, now I'm payin' the price today.
I begged you come back, wasn't ready then, I know.
Now I'm standin' here, watchin' the sad winds blow.
(Verse 3)
Learned to control the storm inside my head,
Beat the addiction. Those dark thoughts are dead.
Learned your desires, the things you held dear,
Changed my own path, year after weary year.
Ain't like I ain't tryin', to move on and be free,
But nothin' compares, to what you gave to me.
I sit, and I cry. When the shadows grow long,
Folks say you moved on. Where did I go wrong?
They say you found someone, a new love's soft flame,
But you still watch me, whisperin' my name.
Saw your post last night, "Can't find that fire again,"
My heart cracked in two, a mournful amen.
(Verse 4)
If it's my dark side, that BPD that holds you back
If you can't believe the change, then I'll cut you slack.
Told my doctor, I'm ready to go, but holdin' onto to a hope
The connection we had just ain't enough to cope. If you called, I wouldn't yell at you but write you a song
I apologize, forever draggin' you into this mess,
For robbin' you of joy, and happiness.
before we met, you were building a life with someone else. I see you two are friends again
i dont need you. i want you, and I want that love from you again. if you look at the ring and listen to this song. if you still wanted to settle down still, my doors are open. if your eyes are for someone else, then I'll let it be.
I'm sorry for the pain. That never ends.
If you find a new flame better than mine, someone better, I'll smile with pain.
Wishful thinkin', you'll come back, for a little while to finish our story we left behind.
if you choose the other, I'll be happy for you.
But the hope runs out, the last thing she hears the fuckin gun pulls back phone and says" live with it" "I love you" the sound of that gunshot that set him fuckin free. (Gunshot goes off)
Outro
now she regrets everything and loves him again. Can't live with herself, cryin, wishin, maybe, but the (Gunshot goes off)