[Intro][dark rave][fast][rap trap d&b][raspy female]
I wanna admit something that's hard to admit
Cos people think that anyone associated with it
Are all the same playing the game & should hang their heads down in shame
But I wanna speak on behalf of the few
People it helps cos it could help you too
[Hook][haunting gritty female]
Feel better
Get up & out of bed
Cos without this bad thing
I'm constantly stuck in my head
I dont use it to escape
I use it to face
My demons inside
That cause pain & make me wanna hide
[Verse 1][female rap]
I wouldve given anything
Thats why I did the 1 thing
That others frown upon
Turned out it was the one thing that helped me a tonne
& even though it's hard
To admit & let down my guard
I have to share
Incase it helps others out there
How?, well
Because I suffered so much hell
My mental health
Had fooled my mind
Into thinking Im the broken kind
My body would shutdown
Id just sleep & never get out of my night gown
Soo sleepy & weepy
An emotional heapy
I had no energy
Left to try & work on me
I wouldve done anything
To finally
[Hook]
[Verse 2]
Pain in silence every day
Listening to the hurtful shit others say
Like "oh she's just faking, she's actually fine
She exaggerates, a hypochondriac does it all the time"
"She's just lazy, it's just manipulation
So she gets what she wants in every situation,
& that's how she gets away with it all
Don't be a fool! don't fall!"
It makes me really sad
That people think I'd be that bad
To pretend to be sick
& miss out on life just to play this trick
Where I stay in bed & cry & cry Cos I can't do anything else but lie
Here & wish I was dead
[Sarcastic] But Nooo it's just
All in my head
[Hook]
[Verse 3][talk]
Just like everything out there
In moderation taken with care
Certain things can be helpful for some
Just like sugar & alcohol can become
Things that people over take & abuse
Then need to be treated & made to lose
Their addictive habit cos it now hurts you
It's not beneficial anymore
To do that thing you did before
Like running too much & too hard core
Balance
temperance
It's what self control is for
[Interlude][layered bass]
Here's the thing
that gave me a break
From sinking
Into all the pain
This is what helped me make
The choice to start the healing
& look at the reasons why I was feeling
So sick & in so much pain so hidden & unseen
It's scary to say but I gotta say
That it was
-- methamphetamine
[Dramatic pause]
[Bridge][haunting gritty female]
Those who turn into a crack head
Usually stay awake too long & don't go to bed
They starve their bodies from food & drink
It's not actually the drug it's not what you think
They'll be using to run from their shit
But really it just heightens it
Turns them all paranoid
Makes them face what they're trying to avoid & thats why it could fully
be good
[DnB]
[Outro]
If only it was used the way that it should
It could fully help some people & I know it would
Cos it truly helped me feel understood
Finally
I found something that could
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