Dead in the dream

I been livin’ two lives, I don’t sleep right, one in the shadows, one in the streetlights, money keep callin’ but it don’t feel right, smile for the world but it’s not me, right, I been up late with my thoughts in a cage, writin’ my sins on the back of a page, feel like I’m stuck in a loop I can’t break, same damn story just a different day

Cold nights, no heat in the room, broke dreams, feel death in the mood, mama said pray, I said soon, now I’m talkin’ to a god I never knew, same shoes, holes in the sole, same friends turn ghosts for the gold, I was down, had dirt in my soul, now I’m up but I’m losin’ control, learned how to smile when it hurt the most, learned how to ride with a heart so cold, every loss turned me into a ghost, now I’m here but I don’t feel close

I been livin’ two lives, I don’t sleep right, one in the shadows, one in the streetlights, money keep callin’ but it don’t feel right, smile for the world but it’s not me, right, I hear the noise but it sound so fake, love get lost when the bands get made, traded my peace for a better name, now I got everything but it ain’t the same

Now it’s penthouse views and a skyline, bad ones beggin’ just to get my time, same ones wouldn’t look twice, now they actin’ like they always been mine, bottles, models, lights flash, fast life movin’ too fast, every win feel hollow in the aftermath, swear I’m chasin’ somethin’ I already passed, engine runnin’ but I’m goin’ nowhere, full tank but I’m breathin’ no air, got a crowd but I feel so rare, like I disappeared and nobody care

I been livin’ two lives, I don’t sleep right, one in the shadows, one in the streetlights, money keep callin’ but it don’t feel right, smile for the world but it’s not me, right, every night got a war in my head, dreams turn dark when I lay in the bed, voices echo everything that I said, now I don’t even know what’s left

I seen both sides, it’s the same cage, broke or rich just a different stage, pain don’t leave when the checks change, just get dressed up with a better name, mirror show a face I don’t recognize, same kid just dead in the eyes, if this the dream then why I feel like I died, tell me which life is the real disguise, I tried to run but it stayed in me, every win just a fade to me, built it up just to break in me, now I’m lost in what I made to be

I been livin’ two lives, I don’t sleep right, one in the shadows, one in the streetlights, money keep callin’ but it don’t feel right, smile for the world but it’s not me, right, if I wake up will it all rewind, or am I stuck in between these lives, truth get blurred when the lights too bright, I don’t know which one’s mine tonight