I learned how to lie through my teeth at school
Say “I’m fine” like it’s nothing new
They tell me pain makes you beautiful
But it’s ugly living the truth
I trace my thoughts on a cracked phone screen
Deleting words I was meant to say
I’m too young to feel this unseen
Too old to believe it’ll fade
They swear it’s just hormones, growing pains
Like that explains the weight in my chest
Every night feels like I’m going insane
Trying my best just to get some rest
It’s a teenage mentality
Breaking down in my bedroom light
They call it my reality
But it feels like losing the fight
I’m smiling like it’s not killing me
While my head’s a war zone mentally
If this is what youth is meant to be
I hate this teenage mentality
I wear my sadness like second skin
Hidden under jokes and laughs
Everyone thinks I’m letting them in
But they only know half
I watch my friends dream out loud
Talk about futures I can’t see
I feel so lost in a crowded room
Lonely with company
I’m screaming inside, but I stay polite
Don’t wanna be someone’s concern
I’m scared if I open my mouth tonight
I’ll say too much and get burned
It’s a teenage mentality
Crying where no one hears
They say it’s just my reality
But I’ve been drowning for years
I’m smiling like it’s not killing me
While my head’s a war zone mentally
If this is what youth is meant to be
I hate this teenage mentality
Maybe one day I’ll look back and laugh
Call this chapter “just a phase”
But right now I’m barely holding fast
Counting down my days
I don’t wanna fade into a warning sign
Or be the kid they “never knew”
I just wanna feel alive
Instead of surviving through
It’s a teenage mentality
Living life on the edge of tears
They promise time will rescue me
But time just feeds my fears
I’m smiling like it’s not killing me
While I’m breaking down silently
If I don’t make it out of this clean
Blame this teenage mentality
I was hurting more than I showed
Carrying weight I couldn’t release
Just a kid trying not to explode
Begging for a little peace
blakejade