[Verse 1]
Boots by the door
Coffee gone cold again
Helmet on the counter
Like a ghost of where I've been
Trauma in my turnout
Soaked into every seam
I crack jokes in the kitchen
Just to hold back what I've seen
[Chorus]
In the darkness
I remember
Every face
Every name
Racing into every emergency
And I never walk out the same
I stitch my heart with black humor
But it still comes undone
In the middle of the smoke and the sirens
I’m just looking
Looking for love from someone
[Verse 2]
We laugh in the locker room
Louder than the rain
Hide the haunted look
Behind some story
Some nickname
But when the night gets quiet
And the pager’s finally still
I feel the weight of all those moments
That I thought I’d learned to kill
[Chorus]
In the darkness
I remember
Every face
Every name
Racing into every emergency
And I never walk out the same
I stitch my heart with black humor
But it still comes undone
In the middle of the smoke and the sirens
I’m just looking
Looking for love from someone
[Bridge]
Can I say that I’m not okay? (hey)
Can I lay this armor down?
If I bring you all this broken
Will you stay when I fall down?
[Chorus]
In the darkness
Please remember
I’m a person
Not a flame
Running headfirst into emergency
Doesn’t mean I feel no pain
I hold my fear with hard humor
But I’m tired of being tough
Underneath this heavy jacket
There’s a heart here
That still believes in love