

Prompt / Lyrics
Alarm clock crying at half past three, Walls feel closer when it’s just me. Mirror talks but I don’t reply, I’m so good at living, just bad at why. There’s a bottle shaking in my hand, Little white promises I don’t understand. They say this will help, this will heal, But nothing they give me feels real. Doctor says I’m doing “fine,” But fine just means I’m still alive. I nod my head, I fake the smile, Counting seconds, not the miles. So I take my pills and I lie awake, Waiting for my heart to break or break its pace. They numb the pain but not the ache, I’m still drowning, I just float in place. If this is getting better, tell me when it starts, ’Cause I take my pills but I still fall apart. Friends say, “Call me if it’s bad,” But it’s always bad, just dressed up sad. I don’t wanna be a weight they carry, So I swallow silence, chase what’s necessary. Every thought’s a loaded gun, Every night I come undone. I’m tired of being “almost okay,” Tired of praying I’ll feel a different way. I read the label, line by line, Side effects sound just like my mind. May cause tears, may cause sleep, May cause losing parts of me. So I take my pills and I lie awake, Waiting for my heart to break or break its pace. They numb the pain but not the ache, I’m still drowning, I just float in place. If this is getting better, tell me when it starts, ’Cause I take my pills but I still fall apart. I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna feel, Every day’s a wound that won’t heal. If hope’s a drug, I’m out of supply, And faith tastes bitter when you try. I’m scared one day I’ll miss a dose, And find out who I am the most— Is it me or chemistry Holding what’s left of me? So I take my pills like a daily prayer, Hands shaking, hoping someone’s there. I follow the rules, I do my part, Still hear the echo in my heart. If I’m still here, does that mean I’m strong? Or just really good at holding on? I take my pills… But the nights are still too long. Bottle’s empty, sun comes up, Another day, I fake the tough. If healing’s real, I’ll wait my turn— Just tired of hurting while I learn.
Tags
Male vocals, desperate, rock
3:34
No
1/3/2026