My History With Hospitals

[Intro]
Yeah…
You thought I’d break?
Nah… I bend, I don’t snap.
[Verse 1]
White walls, cold nights, no sleep in my head,
Heartbeat racing like I’m already dead,
Doctors talking but I’m lost in the sound,
Anxiety screaming, ain’t nobody around.
Needles in my arm, yeah, drip drop slow,
IV in my veins but it don’t fix my soul,
Stomach getting pumped, yeah, poison out my chest,
But the pain in my brain? Man, that shit stay pressed.
They say “breathe, calm down”, I’m like “you don’t know”,
Feels like drowning in a room full of hope,
Pills in the morning, pills at night,
Tryna fix the dark but I still can’t see light.
[Pre-Chorus]
Hands shaking, can’t control the wave,
Mind like a war that I never gave,
They see a body, I’m a battlefield,
Smile on my face but I’m barely healed.
[Chorus]
I been fighting, yeah, I’m still here,
Tears dry quick but the pain don’t disappear,
Hospital lights, yeah, they burn so clear,
But I walked out alive, now I got no fear.
No IV, no meds gonna rewrite me,
No label, no past gonna define me,
Yeah, I broke, but I built that too,
Now I stand like “what else you gon’ do?”
[Verse 2]
Panic hit fast, like a punch to the lung,
Vision go black, can’t feel my tongue,
Heart so loud, think it might explode,
Every step heavy like I carry the load.
They don’t see the nights I was losing control,
Crying on the floor, tryna piece my soul,
Every single breath felt borrowed, not mine,
Living in my head like I’m serving time.
Yeah, I’ve been low, way deeper than deep,
Demons don’t rest, they don’t even sleep,
But I learned real quick in that hospital bed,
You don’t gotta be okay to not be dead.
[Pre-Chorus]
Scars hidden, yeah, they under the skin,
Every loss turned to a silent win,
You see pain, I see proof I survived,
Every damn second I’m still alive.
[Chorus]
I been fighting, yeah, I’m still here,
Tears dry quick but the pain don’t disappear,
Hospital lights, yeah, they burn so clear,
But I walked out alive, now I got no fear.
No IV, no meds gonna rewrite me,
No label, no past gonna define me,
Yeah, I broke, but I built that too,
Now I stand like “what else you gon’ do?”
[Bridge]
Yeah, I shook, yeah, I screamed, yeah, I lost my way,
But I woke up again, that’s another day,
Not a victim, nah, I’m a whole damn fight,
Turn pain to power, now I own that night.
You see chaos, I see art in the scars,
Every breakdown got me reaching the stars,
I’m the storm and the calm, both sides of me,
Ain’t nobody in this world surviving like me.
[Final Chorus]
I been fighting, yeah, I’m still here,
Every dark thought couldn’t keep me there,
Hospital past but I left that fear,
Now I talk my truth and I make it clear.
No IV, no meds gonna rewrite me,
No past life ever gonna blind me,
Yeah, I lived what they couldn’t go through,
Now I stand like “I made it… did you?”

female trap rap, aggressive emotional, dark hospital theme, anxiety, survival, powerful female voice, 145 bpm, hard 808s