Livin' In My Head

I wake up tired, I didn’t even sleep

My body’s here but my mind’s in the deep

Coffee goes cold, I forget what I need

Too many voices, they don’t let me breathe

Walls getting closer, same room every day

Heart like a siren that won’t fade away

I try to focus, it slips through my hands

Like chasing smoke, I don’t understand

And I smile like I’m fine, yeah I play my role

But inside there’s a war that I can’t control

I’m living in my head, can’t get out tonight

Every thought’s a blade and they cut just right

I’m dancing with my fears in the neon dark

Got anxiety beating like a second heart

I’m living in my head, where the silence screams

Where depression paints my world in grayscale dreams

And I try, yeah I try, but it pulls me in

Feels like home, but it’s breaking my skin

I start ten things, never finish one

My brain’s like a race I can’t outrun

Too many tabs open in my mind

I lose myself just trying to find

A single moment where I feel okay

Not too fast, not too numb, not far away

I laugh too loud or I don’t at all

Either I’m flying or about to fall

And they say “just breathe,” like it’s that easy

But my chest feels tight when it hits me

I’m living in my head, can’t get out tonight

Every thought’s a blade and they cut just right

I’m dancing with my fears in the neon dark

Got anxiety beating like a second heart

I’m living in my head, where the silence screams

Where depression paints my world in grayscale dreams

And I try, yeah I try, but it pulls me in

Feels like home, but it’s breaking my skin

Some days I’m a ghost in my own life

Some days I’m too much, too loud, too bright

I hate it here, but I know this place

Every corner, every scar, every face

And maybe one day I’ll learn to stay

Without running from myself halfway

But tonight I’m stuck in this storm again

Trying to make peace with the noise within

I’m living in my head, but I’m still here

Even when it whispers I should disappear

Yeah, the dark gets loud, but I won’t give in

There’s a pulse in my chest saying “breathe again”

I’m living in my head, learning how to fight

Even broken stars still burn with light

And I try, yeah I try, even when it’s hard

To believe there’s more than this fragile heart