(Verse 1)
Long day dragged me through the fire,
Every step felt like barbed wire.
But the thought of you kept me alive,
Your smile waiting at the end of the night.
I swallowed the storm, I buried the rage,
Held it together so I wouldn’t break your space.
Didn’t let the darkness touch your door,
Just wanted your arms and nothing more.
(Pre-Chorus)
One ear, one shoulder, one “it’ll be okay”…
That’s all I needed at the end of the day.
(Chorus)
But you turned me away, left me standing in the cold,
Now I’m choking on the words I’ll never get to say.
I created a monster, yeah I built him stone by stone,
A man who never breaks, who never feels alone.
No cracks, no weakness, no tears in his eyes,
Just a rock for you, even when I’m dying inside.
I created a monster… and the monster is me.
(Verse 2)
So I push it all down, lock it up tight,
Paint on a smile in the dead of the night.
Your problems come first, your weight on my back,
I carry the load while mine fades to black.
You don’t need my mess, you don’t want my pain,
So I’ll be that strong man again and again.
No one to hold me when the world falls apart,
I guess some hearts were never meant to fall apart.
(Chorus)
Yeah you turned me away, left me bleeding in the cold,
Now the silence is screaming everything I can’t say.
I created a monster, built him brick by heavy brick,
Emotionless soldier, always ready for the hit.
No voice, no comfort, no safe place to land,
Just the version of me that you can understand.
I created a monster… and I’m losing me.
(Bridge)
And it’s okay, or at least that’s what I tell myself,
Not everyone gets someone to catch them when they fall.
I’ll be the mountain, I’ll be the wall,
Even if it kills the man behind it all.
(Final Chorus – softer then building)
I created a monster… quiet and tall,
He never gets tired, he never shows it all.
For you I’ll stand here, steady as stone,
Even if I’m breaking, you’ll never know.
I created a monster…
God, the monster is me.
(Outro)
So I’ll keep on smiling…
While the real me disappears.
