I was never really there

Verse 1
Driving hours through the pouring rain
To stand around my casket in black and gray
Faces wet with tears they never cried for me
When I was breathing, lost and lonely
Pre-Chorus
They never drove five minutes just to say hi
Never picked up the phone to ask if I was alright
But now the highway’s full of cars with funeral lights
Funny how death finally made them find the time
[Chorus]
They’re crying ’cause I’m gone, but never checked if I was okay
Always called when they needed me, never wondered if I needed anything
They’ll say “He was always there for us,” like some kind of saint
Never realizing they were never there when I was breaking
It took my death for them to see how special I was.
When I was alive… they just took it for granted
Now I’m gone… and nothing changes for them
I was never even a second thought.
Verse 2
They’ll stand up and share stories, laugh through the pain
About all the times I saved them, again and again…
“How he’d drop everything, no matter the hour”
While I was drowning alone in my darkest hour
[Pre-Chorus]
They never asked “How are you holding up?”
Never noticed the silence when I stopped showing up
But death sends invitations nobody ignores
So here they are… at my funeral doors
[Chorus]
They’re crying ’cause I’m gone, but never checked if I was okay
Always called when they needed me, never wondered if I needed anything
They’ll say “He was always there for us,” like some kind of saint
Never realizing they were never there when I was breaking
It took my death for them to see how special I was
When I was alive… they just took it for granted
Now I’m gone… and nothing changes for them
I was never even a second thought
Bridge
And the flowers will wilt, the stories will fade
They’ll go back to their lives by the end of the day
No void left behind, no hole in their routine
’Cause I was just the one who was always in between
The giver, the fixer, the one who stayed strong
Until the giving finally took me… and they moved on
Final Chorus (quieter, colder)
They cried ’cause I’m gone… but never asked if I was okay
They drove so long to say goodbye… but never drove to say hi
It took my death for them to finally realize
I was someone worth missing… only after I died
Now I’m gone… and the world keeps spinning the same
Nothing changes for them…
’Cause I was never even a second thought
Outro (fading, almost whispered)
Drive safe on the way home…
Don’t think about me too long…
I was never really there anyway.

Male, painful song, deep pain, angry