Im not good

When I’m asked how I’m doing?

I will give a smile and

Say “I’m good”

But the truth’s a storm of emotions .

Everyone sees the light, but never the shadows,

Or The cracks beneath this steady front.

I’m screaming inside where nobody goes,

But my lips just can only say, “I’m good”

I’m good, I’m good, that’s what I say,

Pushing the pain down, day by day.

Wish I could scream, wish I could fall,

But I’ve built these walls too high, too tall.

I’m strong, I swear, I’ll never break,

Hiding the hurt, for everyone’s sake.

Wish I could ask for a hand to hold,

But “I’m good” is all I’ve ever told.

I learned early, don’t let ‘em see you cry,

Be the rock, never let the mask slip.

But the weight’s getting too heavy, and I’m wondering why,

I’m drowning in silence, losing my grip.

Every “I’m good” is a lie I perfect,

A story I tell to keep the world at bay.

But deep in my chest, I’m a ship that’s wrecked,

Sinking slow, with no words to say.

I’m good, I’m good, that’s what I say,

Pushing the pain down, day by day.

Wish I could scream, wish I could fall,

But I’ve built these walls too high, too tall.

I’m strong, I swear, I’ll never break,

Hiding the hurt, for everyone’s sake.

Wish I could ask for a hand to hold,

But “I’m good” is all I’ve ever told.

What’s it like to let it all spill out?

To say I’m broken, to scream, to shout?

I’m scared if I crack, I’ll never be whole,

So I bury the truth deep in my soul.

But it’s heavy, it’s cold, it’s tearing me apart,

This “I’m good” is breaking my heart.

One day I’ll learn to let someone in,

To say I’m hurting, to let the healing begin.

But for now, I’ll smile, keep playing my part,

Saying “I’m good” while I’m falling apart.