Avoiding the storm

Woke up with the weight of yesterday's storm
Echoes in my head, can't tell what's real anymore
You say you're close, but I build these walls so high
Afraid you'll see the cracks and say goodbye

I'm splitting black and white, no gray in between
Pull you in tight, then push you out of the scene
It's not you, it's the fire inside that's burning me clean

I'm a ghost in your arms, fading fast from the light
Clinging desperate, then running into the night
Borderline love, avoidant heart in the fight
We dance on the edge, but I can't get it right

Texts unread, I stare at the screen till it blurs
Convince myself you're gone, heart in reverse
Need you like air, but suffocate when you're near
Independence a shield, hiding all of my fear

Emotions like waves crashing over the shore
One minute I'm yours, next I'm bolting the door
Can't trust the calm, 'cause the chaos wants more

I'm a ghost in your arms, fading fast from the light
Clinging desperate, then running into the night
Borderline love, avoidant heart in the fight
We dance on the edge, but I can't get it right

Screaming silent in mirrors that shatter my face
Who am I without you? Just empty space
Therapy words echo hollow in my chest
Trying to fix what's broken, but I'm a mess
Hold on, let go, repeat the cycle again
Wonder if we'll ever break or just pretend

I'm a ghost, fading out into the night
Borderline, avoidant now...
I can't, just can't-oh, just can't get it right...

Midwest emo song with sound like the band Hot Mulligan, male singer