Avoiding the storm

Woke up with the weight of yesterday's storm

Echoes in my head, can't tell what's real anymore

You say you're close, but I build these walls so high

Afraid you'll see the cracks and say goodbye

I'm splitting black and white, no gray in between

Pull you in tight, then push you out of the scene

It's not you, it's the fire inside that's burning me clean

I'm a ghost in your arms, fading fast from the light

Clinging desperate, then running into the night

Borderline love, avoidant heart in the fight

We dance on the edge, but I can't get it right

Texts unread, I stare at the screen till it blurs

Convince myself you're gone, heart in reverse

Need you like air, but suffocate when you're near

Independence a shield, hiding all of my fear

Emotions like waves crashing over the shore

One minute I'm yours, next I'm bolting the door

Can't trust the calm, 'cause the chaos wants more

I'm a ghost in your arms, fading fast from the light

Clinging desperate, then running into the night

Borderline love, avoidant heart in the fight

We dance on the edge, but I can't get it right

Screaming silent in mirrors that shatter my face

Who am I without you? Just empty space

Therapy words echo hollow in my chest

Trying to fix what's broken, but I'm a mess

Hold on, let go, repeat the cycle again

Wonder if we'll ever break or just pretend

I'm a ghost, fading out into the night

Borderline, avoidant now...

I can't, just can't-oh, just can't get it right...