Karmic Lust Disguised in Trust

(Verse 1)

Saw you walking down the hallway, I was caught in a stare

Eyes so blue, cutting through the humid summer air

You said your world felt like a locked, emploding door

So, I sat with you in the dark, picked the splinters from your wounds

Told you every scar I had, laid them out like trading cards

You held them up to the light, convincing me they were appealing, too

And I believed you.

(Pre-Chorus)

Karmic lust disguised in trust

Convincingly playing the victim

Turns out only one of us was lying

Ignorant to truth, absorbing the pretense he was supplying

(Chorus)

I was the bridge you burned on your way to better weather.

Shot me, now I'll bleed on others forever

I kept ahold of you like the Polaroid in the back of my phone.

You found a new hand to hold, while watching me lose my way home

Funny how, “I’ll never abandon you”

Turned into, "it's too late", "I hate you"

(Verse 2)

You texted “I’m proud of you” from his tinted passenger seat.

While I was learning how to breathe with a chest full of concrete.

I told you I was drowning, you said “the water's going to be fine”.

While blocking me the same week, changing your last name in your mind

Funny how, “I’ll never abandon you”

Turned into, "this is why I am not coming back to you"

(Pre-Chorus)

I left the porch light on for months

Left in this state, no note, so abrupt

Some people don't want to outrun their homes- unhealthy patterns, repeating cycles, the one's supporting misconduct

(Chorus)

I was the bridge you burned on your way to better weather.

Shot me, now I'll bleed on others forever.

I kept every photo, every voice mail, every “are you okay?”

You deleted me, ran to your friends, dismissed my signals of frantic mayday.

I hope he likes the new version of you

Karma is overdue, pay it for two

(Bridge)

I still flinch, hearing your voice on the radio at night.

Every word, every tone, like a sickness I can't fight.

Begging me for vulnerableness.

My mind was stuck in survival, so much distress.

Holding me, you convinced me to take off my vest

Took this loaded gun, looking into my eyes for the last time-

Point blank, you shot me in the chest

(Chorus)

I was the bridge, you were the gasoline

You lit the match while trying on the ring

I still sleep on my side of the bed

You still pretend you’re better off instead

So admittedly far from the perfect thing

Instinctively nervous of red flags I failed to detect

Overwhelming sadness and regret, loss of a life

Wish that we could rewind and reflect

(Outro)

I kept the receipts in my mind

Proof that I tried

You kept the lighter, burned me alive

No evidence that you lied

Karmic lust

Disguised in trust