[Intro – Ambient synth loop + distant reverb guitar]
[Whispered]
You ever feel like…
You’re awake, but you’re not *here*?
[Verse 1 – melodic rap with lo-fi drums]
I get asked if I’m okay
I smile and lie, say “Yeah” or “I’ll figure it out someday”
Sip caffeine like it’s medicine
Routine face, soul gone dim
Nobody sees the cracks — only the patchwork
Numb replies, fake laughs, homework
What’s joy? What’s love? What’s peace?
All I know lately is this… fatigue
[Pre-Chorus – sung emotionally with rising guitar]
目は開いてるのに、夢を見てるみたい
「大丈夫?」って聞かれても、うなずくだけ
コーヒーだけが支え、心は空っぽのまま
[Chorus – angsty delivery with full drum drop]
I’m on autopilot, 飛んでるけど墜落寸前
Running low on serotonin, fake smiles again and again
「元気?」って聞かないで、I don’t have the script today
What’s love? What’s joy? What’s feeling?
All I know is sadness... and sinking
[Break – Glitchy instrumental loop + breathy echo]
[Spoken]
I wake up tired / I sleep still wired
Living in grayscale, not even inspired
[Verse 2 – melodic pop rap tone]
頭の中ノイズだらけ、でも黙ってるだけ
People say “just rest” / But I forgot how
この心、もう壊れかけてる
And I don’t even know what I feel now
[Pre-Chorus – Repeat variation]
「助けて」って言えたらいいのに
But I don’t wanna be a burden
I smile, nod, and sip again
それしかできないのが、悔しい
[Chorus – Heavier vocal push, layered]
I’m on autopilot, just crash landing soft
Pretending I’m okay, when really I’m lost
「頑張って」って刺さるだけ
Don’t ask me to smile — it hurts too much today
What’s love? What’s joy? What’s feeling?
All I know is sadness… and sinking
[Bridge – Soft piano + fading drum loop]
[Spoken]
If sadness had a shape…
It would look like me when I say, “I’m fine.”
[Outro – Guitar fade + ambient synth noise]
ねえ、まだ希望ってあるの?
Or is this just… what surviving feels like?