[Intro - Spoken Over Lo-fi Guitar + Trap Beat]
[lo-fi guitar picking, 808 kicks]
Yeah...
I don’t even know if I can feel anymore
[Verse 1 - Melodic Rap]
Staring at the ceiling with my headphones in
Numb to everything except the voices within
Rolling smoke to fill the empty space
Text you back then ghost, yeah I hate this place
Eyes red, nights long
Fake smile so they think I'm strong
I don’t wanna talk, just vibe
Leave me here alone with my lies
[Pre-Chorus - Emotional Melodic Singing]
Tell me it’s real even if it’s not
I’d rather feel pain than feel like I’m lost
Cut me open just to see I’m alive
I’m so tired of being alright
[Chorus - Hook with Trap Beat + Guitar]
I wanna feel it burn
I wanna feel it ache
Give me something real
Even if my heart breaks
I wanna feel the sting
I wanna feel the fall
Tired of feeling nothing
Rather lose it all
[Instrumental Break - Atmospheric Guitar + 808s]
[chugging chords, layered pads]
[Verse 2 - Melodic Rap]
Eyes closed but the thoughts so loud
Say I’m fine, yeah, wear that proud
I know the numb’s been keeping me safe
But what’s safety if you’re gone from the race?
Scrolling through our pictures at 4AM
Half a drink and I’m thinking again
About us, about life, about death
About shit that I can’t confess
[Pre-Chorus - Emotional Melodic Singing]
Tell me it’s real even if it’s not
I’d rather feel pain than feel like I’m lost
Cut me open just to see I’m alive
I’m so tired of being alright
[Chorus - Hook with Trap Beat + Guitar]
I wanna feel it burn
I wanna feel it ache
Give me something real
Even if my heart breaks
I wanna feel the sting
I wanna feel the fall
Tired of feeling nothing
Rather lose it all
[Bridge - Spoken Rap Over Soft Guitar Loop]
If being numb is survival
I think I’m done surviving
I want the tears, the screams, the rage
I want to know I’m still alive
Even if it’s ugly
Even if it scars
I’m tired of being empty
[Instrumental Build - Lo-fi Beat + Ambient Pads]
[slow hi-hats, rising pads, vocal layering]
[Chorus - Final Hook with Ad Libs]
I wanna feel it burn
I wanna feel it ache
Give me something real
Even if my heart breaks
I wanna feel the sting
I wanna feel the fall
Tired of feeling nothing
Rather lose it all
[Outro - Fading]
[soft guitar picking]
Yeah...
Even if it hurts...
At least it's real...
DreamyCow
