Poison Sugar

You said my name like it was yours to keep

Pulled me in, made it hard to breathe

Told me love was messy, raw

But yours felt more like breaking laws

You asked and asked, wore down my no

Smiled so soft, but your hands said “go”

Told me, “You want this, don’t you?”

But choice don’t mean much when I can’t move

Felt like flying—right before the fall

Felt like safety—'til you took it all

You were the hit I swore I’d never need

Now you’re the scar that still haunts me

You were poison sugar, bitter sweet

Tasted like comfort, burned like heat

I froze in your hands, but I played along

You made me feel wrong for being strong

Guilt in your grip, shame in your stare

Wanted me quiet, wanted me bare

You gave me hell and a dopamine rush

Called it love—but it felt like too much

Told you I needed space to breathe

You said, “Yeah, of course”—but never really left me

Walked too close like you owned the air

Played dead games with that vacant stare

Didn’t scream, didn’t shout

Just haunted the silence and shadowed doubt

Turned every inch I fought to claim

Into another rigged mind game

You played the part of letting go

But you never really lost control

Backed off just far enough

To keep your claws in deep enough

You stayed close enough to haunt me

Never far, just out of reach

Used the space I asked for

As another way to breach

You were quiet, but loud in my head

Still creeping through things you never said

You stayed close enough to haunt me

And far enough to play clean

You touched like you had the right

Like pressure made it justified

Told me “You’re the girl who was never treated right”

“I’m the boy who was never loved right”

Like that made it okay to cross my line

Didn’t scream, but I still shattered

Didn’t bleed, but I still mattered

Called it care, but it was use

You called it love—I call it abuse

You were poison sugar, bitter sweet

Left your fingerprints on grief

Gave me space like it was mercy

Then filled it with disbelief

You were gone, but not gone

And I broke just to hold on—

You stayed close enough to haunt me

But I’m done being your ghost nest

You gave me hell and a dopamine high

But I see through the thrill, through every lie

No more silence in your hands

I’m done

And I'm leaving you behind