“Embarrassed to Run Back”

Verse 1

I broke Your heart when I didn’t ask,

Went my own way, didn’t look back.

Thought I could handle all the pain,

Now I’m standing in the rain.

Verse 2

I wrestled with my pride and shame,

Called Your name but it felt in vain.

Every step I thought was right,

Led me deeper into night.

Pre-Chorus

Every choice, it led me here,

In the silence, I face my fear.

I hear You calling, soft and true,

But I don’t know how to come to You.

Chorus

’Cause I struggle, God, I’m hurt,

My soul’s covered in the dirt.

I’m ashamed of what I’ve done,

Too embarrassed to run.

I made my move without Your hand,

Now I barely understand—

How to face the love I knew,

When I walked away from You.

Verse 3

I’m broken, Lord, can You still see

The pieces of me that long for Thee?

I hid my tears, I hid my cries,

But You never stopped seeing my eyes.

Verse 4

I feel the weight of every wrong,

But I know Your love is strong.

I pushed away, I turned my face,

Yet You kept me held in Your embrace.

Pre-Chorus 2

Every night, I fight my pride,

Wanting to run, but can’t hide.

I know You wait, so patient, true,

But I’m too scared to come to You.

Chorus

’Cause I struggle, God, I’m hurt,

My soul’s covered in the dirt.

I’m ashamed of what I’ve done,

Too embarrassed to run.

I made my move without Your hand,

Now I barely understand—

How to face the love I knew,

When I walked away from You.

Spoken Word / Testimony Bridge

I admit it, Lord—I messed up.

I thought I knew better. I thought I was strong.

I walked away from Your voice,

Ignored Your guidance, and stumbled along.

I chased fleeting things that left me empty,

And now I’m here, humbling my heart,

Asking You to forgive,

Asking You to hold me again.

Even when I felt too far, too broken,

You were never gone, never silent.

Your love stayed, constant and patient,

Waiting for me to remember…

That You’re all I need.

Chorus (Final)

I struggle, God, I’m hurt,

But I’m reaching through the dirt.

No more shame, I’m coming home,

I was lost, but I’m not alone.

You were waiting all along,

Even when I felt so gone.

Now I’m running back to You,

’Cause Your love is still the truth.

Outro

Here I am, I fall, I bend,

Humbled, broken, yet You defend.

I’ll lift my hands, I’ll lift my heart,

From the start, You never let me depart.