[Verse 1]
Sleeps in on Sundays
Scrolls past the verses on her phone
Bites her tongue at family dinners
When they say she's never alone
Keeps count of the bad things
Like they’re beads on a broken chain
Every setback
Every heartbreak
Feels stamped with her name
[Chorus]
Is this what punishment feels like?
Or just rain that never dries?
If You’re there
Then why this silence?
Why this ache behind my eyes?
My hands fold
Then fall away
I’m barely able to pray
[Verse 2]
She tried once in college
Knees on carpet
Heart in knots
Spilled every secret
Every failure
Felt like talking to the dark
Now she flinches at the quiet
Fills the car with background noise
Scared the stillness might be proof
She’s just talking to her void
[Chorus]
Is this what punishment feels like?
Or just rain that never dries?
If You’re there
Then why this silence?
Why this ache behind my eyes?
My hands fold
Then fall away
I’m barely able to pray
[Bridge]
If You’re counting every wrong
You already know my list
If You’re waiting till I’m perfect
You will never answer this
So if You see me in this mess
Hiding from Your name
Meet me where my words run out
And hear the hurt
Not just the shame (oh)
[Chorus]
Is this what punishment feels like?
Or just rain that never dries?
If You’re there
Then hold this silence
Before it swallows up my mind
My hands shake
But still they raise
Just one sentence
Can You stay?
If I only breathe Your name
Is that enough to call it
Pray?