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Lyrics
**[INTRO — SOFT PIANO / SPOKEN]**
I keep telling everybody I'm fine...
But I don't know what that means anymore.
**[VERSE 1 — CONTROLLED RAP]**
Built these walls so high I forgot what's outside,
Put a smile on my face while I'm dying inside.
Everybody sees progress, nobody sees the cost,
They celebrate the man while I'm mourning who I lost.
I fight with my thoughts like they're enemies,
Every memory reminds me of everything.
I tell myself, "Move on," like it's something I can choose,
How do you leave the past when it's attached to you?
I overthink every word, every look, every silence,
Turn a little doubt into a full-blown crisis.
Maybe I'm afraid of failing, maybe scared to win,
Maybe I'm terrified of finding out who I've been.
**[PRE-CHORUS — BUILDING]**
When did I become somebody I don't recognize?
When did the person in the mirror
Start looking like a lie?
**[CHORUS — EMOTIONAL / MELODIC]**
I'm trying to find the person I was
Before the pain changed everything.
Before I learned to hide my heart,
Before I stopped believing.
If I could go back,
Would I even know my name?
I'm not who I wanted to be,
But I'm not who I was yesterday.
Maybe I'm still becoming
Who I'm supposed to be.
**[VERSE 2 — RAPID / INTENSE]**
Got a list of regrets that could stretch to the ceiling,
Every line has a reason, every reason has a feeling.
I blame everybody else, then I blame myself,
Put the truth on a shelf and pretend I'm somebody else.
I push people away before they get the chance,
Call it self-protection when it's really just a habit.
I want somebody close, then I panic when they are,
Build a bridge to somebody just to burn it from afar.
And I hate that I'm like this,
Hate that I know this,
Hate that I keep repeating everything I promised
I'd never become.
But maybe recognizing it
Means I'm not completely done.
**[BRIDGE — PIANO / QUIET]**
Maybe I don't need to fix everything tonight.
Maybe healing isn't winning.
Maybe it's just choosing not to quit.
**[FINAL CHORUS — HUGE / LAYERED]**
I'm trying to find the person I was
Before the pain changed everything.
Before I learned to hide my heart,
Before I stopped believing.
If I could go back,
Would I even know my name?
I'm not who I wanted to be,
But I'm not who I was yesterday.
Maybe I'm still becoming
Who I'm supposed to be.
**[OUTRO — SOFT]**
I don't have all the answers.
But I'm still here.
Maybe that's where I start.
Details
GeneratedAug 16, 2026
Duration3:41
LanguageEnglish
Style
slow, hazy cloud-rap feel,melancholic melodies, distorted low-end,laid-back flows, deep voice, reverbed harmonies,synths
Credits
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HollowVotive
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