No more Control

I’m tired…

Not angry anymore… just tired.

I loved you the way you asked me to…

And you still wanted more.

I did it your way, every time

Bit my tongue just to keep the peace

I shrunk myself to fit your moods

Called it love when it was just control over me

You needed praise like oxygen

But never saw me drowning there

Every boundary I tried to set

You crossed it, then acted unaware

I stayed loyal through the chaos

You called it passion, I called it pain

I kept believing in your words

While your actions stayed the same

You weren’t broken…

You were comfortable breaking me.

I’m done repeating hurt

I’m done bleeding just to feel chosen

You fed on my devotion

Then blamed me when I was broken

You wanted control, not love

You wanted power, not trust

And I’m finally walking away

With my heart still mine… still enough

No more toxic love

No more fixing what won’t change

I’m healing every wound you left

And I’m never looking back again

You called me crazy when I questioned

But my instincts were never wrong

You were cheating with my day one

Smiling in my face all along

Two knives in the same wound

Both cut deeper than I knew

I cut you both off clean

That was the first thing I did for me

You loved being admired

You loved being needed

But when I needed safety

You disappeared and gaslit

You were a narcissist in disguise

Always the victim, never the blame

And I confused your intensity

With something real, something sacred

I see you clearly now

And clarity doesn’t hurt like love did.

I’m done repeating hurt

I’m done begging to be enough

You drained me until I was empty

Then asked why I wasn’t in love

You wanted control, not love

You wanted loyalty without truth

But I choose peace over chaos now

I choose me… I refuse you

No more toxic love

No more cycles, no more chains

I’m healing every wound you left

And I’m never looking back again

I don’t hate you…

I just don’t miss who I was with you.

I forgive myself

For staying too long

For loving too hard

For confusing survival with devotion

This isn’t bitterness…

This is freedom.

I’m done repeating hurt

I learned my lesson in the pain

I won’t chase love that costs my soul

Or call control a different name

You don’t get access anymore

You don’t get to pull my strings

My heart is healing quietly

And that’s the loudest thing

No more toxic love

No more trying to be chosen

I walked away whole this time

And that’s how I know I’ve healed it

I loved you…

But I love myself more now.