[Verse 1]
He’s up with the sun
Running circles round the room
I’m hiding in the bathroom
Counting breaths on the tile
Tiny hands on the door
“Mom
Are you okay?”
I say “yeah
I’m fine”
But my voice shakes the whole way
[Chorus]
I don’t deserve him
But I can’t breathe without his name
He wraps his arms around my knees
Like I’m his whole world anyway
I am tired
I am trying
I am breaking all the time
I don’t deserve him
But he still calls me “mine”
[Verse 2]
He forgets his coat
Leaves his shoes out by the stairs
Teachers calling
I nod along
Then hang up and just despair
There’s crayons on the wall
But he drew us holding hands
Wrote “mommy is my hero”
In uneven
Crooked strands
[Chorus]
I don’t deserve him
But I can’t breathe without his name
He wraps his arms around my knees
Like I’m his whole world anyway
I am tired
I am trying
I am breaking all the time
I don’t deserve him
But he still calls me “mine”
[Bridge]
If love was enough
Would I still feel this small? (so small)
If he could see inside my head
Would he love me at all?
Then he laughs in the hallway
Shouts “Mom
Come and see!”
And in that one
Wild moment
He believes in me
[Chorus]
I don’t deserve him
But I can’t breathe without his name
He wraps his arms around my knees
Like I’m his whole world anyway
I am tired
I am trying
I am here for every fight
I don’t deserve him
But I’ll learn to be his light
[Outro]
He’s up with the sun
I wipe the tears from my eyes
Open up the bathroom door
And step into his life