Anywayz

but that's not what I

should be thinking about right?

yep, that was okay, he's good he's good,

I thought it would, have been, over by now,

I mean, it should, you think it really should, you know ,and they should come to grips, you know with reality and s*** you know you know you know I know they know we know she knows f*** it ,cause I'm the idiot,

right I'm the one ,who don't get it,

I'm the one who's a joke ,

not the one whose airheaded,

I mean she's got to be right

what the f*** else

could it mean to commit to this s***

sight unseen, without warning,

without a reason for something nothing has happened at least 4 years plus something so what then who she or he anyways like so offended off of everything anyways never listen ing always pretending every way they can at me with these things complaining demanding and not asking but telling me what they they're sure that I said what the f*** that meant who has heard what they say to change my history the way it suits what they want how they plan future but I think it's a joke what the hell are they thinking Monday straight through the weekend Relentless speaking all Looney Tuney and spastic make this s*** out to be drastic I'm past it I'm gone while I'm over here do this s*** it's like a million to one the odds in whose favor you figure out that it's that I'm gone no collecting correcting disrespecting for affecting the way I'm doing my God damn thing get me feeling like boom pain ping ping ping ping but anyways I may not take the s*** you say seriously in the mood you say has her reacting off seriously doesn't matter what I said or done you know I do that what I was thinking and I although it was fun I didn't deserve it whatever even though I'm the one who procured it the one who bought it or had a gifted wrapped it up package and we gifted to someone else more deserving who never stopped what they do to start nothing smiling face but a tough one facade that's for sure from the expensive assumptions to the shoes on the floor power tools and some food stamps a few dollars protect shutting me down hot and down hot the panic no place to call home no cash in the bank says I'm lying in fact that's all that she says or he says oblivious to the way that it sounds when they're making these high demands already making these plans to come and shove me harass and try to act lovely but that s*** ain't real for the friendly demeanor to the bunk inside the house on the hill the wheels they stole from the front of my place to the package they still took right in front of my face to all the times they were laughing plot and s*** behind my back recruiting friends that I thought might help me get what I call my peace of mind back it's not about white or black boy or girl man or woman gay or straight big or small shorter tall this is the master debate in the shower or in my own private time I think in the future you'll find you've wasted your goddamn time and I'm in and in the end it'll be for nothing but you