Did he know?

My phone lit up at half past seven

A name I’d never seen before

Just a message from a stranger

Standing at a closed-up door

I stared at it for way too long

Trying to make the pieces fit

Then I saw your shadow in it

And I knew exactly who it is

And maybe that’s the part that gets me

More than anything you’ve done

Did you think I wouldn’t know?

Did you think I wouldn’t hurt?

Did you think a different username

Could make the damage disappear?

Did you think I’d read your message

And forget what came before?

Did you think I’d leave the light on

Like you never shut the door?

I’ve replayed it a thousand ways

The reasons running through my head

Were you hoping I’d forgive you?

Were you checking if I read?

Do you know I see right through it?

Do you know you’re not supposed to?

Or do you tell yourself a story

Where none of this is true?

Did you think I wouldn’t know?

Did you think I wouldn’t hurt?

Did you think a different username

Could make the damage disappear?

Did you think I’d read your message

And forget what came before?

Did you think I’d leave the light on

Like you never shut the door?

Maybe you don’t think about me at all

Maybe that’s what hurts the most

How you showed up out of nowhere

Like I’m just another ghost

I knew the second that I saw it

I knew before I read a word

And what breaks my heart isn’t the message

It’s wondering if you ever learned

Did you think I wouldn’t know?

Did you think I wouldn’t hurt?