CREEP CLEAN

(Verse 1)

I swallow the quiet, it burns going down

Room’s too still, but my head’s too loud

Thoughts on their knees, start to crawl through the black

Whispering secrets I can’t take back

They twist like knives in a wound that won’t heal

Every “what if” feels too fucking real

I pick at the scabs till the silence bleeds red

You’re asleep next to me, I’m already dead

(Pre-Chorus)

I’m counting the cracks in the ceiling again

One for every time I almost gave in

(Chorus)

Silent — my thoughts come creep

In the darkness they come clean

Every shadow’s got teeth

Overthink till I scream

You roll over, say “babe, go to sleep”

Like it’s easy, like I’m not knee-deep

In the static, in the wreckage, in the mean

You look at me soft and say

“You don’t know what I mean”

Nah, babe… you don’t know what I mean

(Verse 2)

3 a.m. tastes like rust and regret

I’m the villain and victim, I haven’t decided yet

I write you a novel inside of my skull

Then hate you for breathing when I need you to fall

I split you in half just to feel something twice

Angel, then monster, then begging for ice

I’m terrified you’ll leave, so I push you away

Then cry when you’re gone like I didn’t just beg you to stay

(Pre-Chorus)

Mirror keeps lying, says I’m the disease

I believe her every time, down on my knees

(Chorus)

Silent — my thoughts come creep

In the darkness they come clean

Every shadow’s got teeth

Overthink till I scream

You reach for my hand, I flinch like a gun

You say “I’m still here,” like I haven’t already run

Inside I’m on fire, outside I’m serene

You kiss my forehead and say

“You don’t know what I mean”

I laugh through the tears…

You don’t know what I mean

(Bridge)

I’m sorry I’m splintered, I’m sorry I’m storm

I’m sorry the calm only comes when you’re gone

I want you, I hate you, I need you, I break you

I love you so hard that it looks like I faked you

Hold me or leave me, just pick one and stay

Either way I’ll hate myself tomorrow anyway

(Final Chorus – raw, half-whispered)

Silent… the thoughts still creep

In the darkness they won’t sleep

I’m the monster underneath

Overthink till I can’t breathe

You’re still here when the sun starts to bleed

I don’t deserve it, but you never leave

I’m shaking, I’m shards, I’m barely human

You pull me in close and say

“I know what you mean”

For once… I believe it

I know what you mean

(Outro – barely audible)

The thoughts still creep…

But they’re quieter when you’re with me.