BITTER

i’m  
twitching  
again  
the bitching  
says  
it’s me  
it’s always  
me  
borderline  
written  
on the wall  
in your  
sharpie  
blame  

you  
weaponize  
the thing  
i already  
despise  
spit it  
back  
like  
i don’t  
swallow  
that  
pill  
every  
morning  

i  
hate  
myself  
enough  
for  
both  
of  
us  
so  
why  
you  
still  
loading  
the  
gun  

i’m  
so  
scared  
to  
lose  
you  
i  
push  
till  
you  
bleed  
i’m  
so  
scared  
to  
lose  
you  
i  
become  
the  
reason  
you  
leave  

that  
ain’t  
me  
that’s  
the  
other  
half  
the  
one  
that  
grabs  
the  
wheel  
when  
i  
blink  

i  
try  
to  
stay  
present  
palms  
open  
heart  
loud  
but  
the  
second  
you  
flinch  
he  
wakes  
up  
swinging  
black  
eyes  
forked  
tongue  
says  
every  
ugly  
thing  
i  
choke  
down  
all  
day  

i  
never  
gave  
him  
keys  
but  
you  
keep  
calling  
him  
my  
name  
so  
he  
thinks  
he  
lives  
here  

i  
know  
i’m  
hard  
to  
love  
i  
know  
i  
burn  
the  
house  
but  
when  
you  
blame  
me  
for  
the  
smoke  
you  
forget  
who  
struck  
the  
match  

i’m  
sorry  
i’m  
sorry  
i’m  
sorry  
i  
never  
meant  
to  
let  
him  
out  
i  
just  
didn’t  
want  
to  
be  
alone  
with  
him  
with  
me  
with  
this  

(long silence… then the opening riff returns, heavier, slower, crushing, single screamed line echoing into the void)

THAT  
WAS  
NEVER  
ME  

(guitars collapse into low drone, heartbeat kick fades to nothing

Hazy breathy emotional horror core trap heavy bass drops, male