[Intro]
Yeah
I’m so tired of myself
(so tired)
I’m so tired of myself
[Verse 1]
Wake up, same ceiling, same crack in the paint
Scroll through strangers, everybody lookin’ great
Smile in the mirror but it flickers, then it fades
Can’t stand my reflection, so I turn the lights away
All these empty trophies lined up on a dusty shelf
Every little win feel smaller than the last one felt
Laugh at my own jokes, then I’m choking on my breath
Tell ’em that I’m fine while I’m flirting with the edge
[Chorus]
I’m so tired of myself
I don’t wanna be this body that I drag around
I’m so tired of myself
Always playing back the worst parts, turning up the sound
I keep running from my shadow
But it’s sleeping in my bed
I’m so tired of myself
I’m so tired, so tired in my head (yeah)
[Verse 2]
Friends say “hit my phone,” then they ghost by the weekend
I say “it’s all good,” I was never really needed
Turn my pain to punchlines, make it easy to digest
If I’m everybody’s clown, they won’t see that I’m a mess
Mama say she pray for me, I’m praying she don’t know
All the little secrets stuffed deep in my coat
Pacing in the kitchen, chewing on my fingernails
I’m rehearsing how to say it, but the courage always fails
[Chorus]
I’m so tired of myself
I don’t wanna be this body that I drag around
I’m so tired of myself
Always playing back the worst parts, turning up the sound
I keep running from my shadow
But it’s sleeping in my bed
I’m so tired of myself
I’m so tired, so tired in my head
[Bridge]
Talk tough in the dark like I’m ready for change (yeah)
Daylight hit my face and I stay the same
Try to climb out of my skin, but it’s stitched too tight
Every promise that I make just dies by night
[Chorus]
I’m so tired of myself
I don’t wanna be this body that I drag around
I’m so tired of myself
Always playing back the worst parts, turning up the sound
I keep running from my shadow
But it’s sleeping in my bed
I’m so tired of myself
I’m so tired, so tired in my head (so tired)
I’m so tired of myself
I’m so tired, so tired in my head