Fucked It Up

Yeah

Still drunk on the same old love

Same old cut, same old scar, I’m—

We were perfect ’til we fucked it up

Turned our promise into dust

You were heaven, I was hell enough

Now my chest is full of rust

Why we had to go and fuck it up

Tore the frame, set fire to trust

You were everything I ever wanted

Now I’m haunted

’Cause we fucked it up

Cold pizza on the counter, two plates catching rust

Unread texts in my phone I can’t scroll past

Every “always” that we said fading way too fast

Your coffee stain on my favorite page

My name on your screen, frozen in place

Your playlist hits and my lungs cave in

I hit skip, hit skip, but I still hear you sing

You said, “I got you, even when it’s bad”

Now I’m blacking out in cabs, yelling at the glass

Talking to my shadow like it’s all I have

How we go from “ride or die” to watch-me-crash

I was angry, petty, proud, talking like a king

You were crying on the stairs, fingers on the ring

I raised my voice just to feel in control

You were shrinking in the doorway, trying not to fold

I said things I can’t erase from the room

They hover over my bed when I wake at noon

[pained autotune ad-lib] “You’ll regret it” in my earbuds now

Yeah I do, every night, but I can’t get out

Your friends walk past me like I’m cigarette smoke

We both know I lit the match, watched it all choke

If there’s a hell for the ones who break what they love

I’m front row, front seat, never giving it up

If I call, would you hang up

Or let it ring till the silence cuts

If I begged, if I bled on the carpet

Would you say it’s just too late to start this

’Cause I still see your face in the arms of strangers

Still hear your laugh in the elevator

Still feel your hand pulling off my armor

But it’s gone, it’s gone, and I’m just screaming

We were perfect ’til we fucked it up

Now it echoes when it hurts

You were everything I ever wanted

Now I’m haunted

’Cause we fucked it up