Am I Still Here?

[Intro – sparse piano, irregular silence between notes, fragile entry]
I don’t really know how to start this part of me  
so I’ll just say it without fixing it

I feel like I’m here  
but not inside being here

[Verse 1 – uneven phrasing, slightly off-natural speech rhythm]
I got up today like it was already decided  
before I even thought about it

nothing feels like it lands in the right place anymore  
it just passes through me

I don’t miss things in a sharp way  
it’s more like I forget they were ever mine

even sadness doesn’t stay long enough  
to feel like something happening

it just… resets  
and keeps going

[Pre-Chorus – slight melodic lift, emotional confusion, hesitant phrasing]
I used to think I could explain this  
like it had edges I could hold

but everything I reach for now  
feels a little out of sync with me

[Chorus – simple but emotionally off-center repetition]
I’m not okay  
but it doesn’t arrive as a feeling anymore

I’m not okay  
it sounds like something I heard about

I’m not okay  
and I keep acting like I understand it

[Verse 2 – more detached, conversational fragmentation]
I tried to make something out of it  
like I used to

but nothing comes back when I try  
it just stays blank

it’s not even sadness anymore  
it’s just the absence of deciding what it is

I think I forgot how to turn things into meaning  
while everything kept happening anyway

and I didn’t notice when that changed

[Pre-Chorus 2 – quieter, more internal, less structured grammar]
I keep thinking I’ll reconnect to myself  
like it’s something I can find again

but it doesn’t feel lost  
it just feels… not accessed

[Chorus – slightly more broken phrasing, less polished]
I’m not okay  
and it doesn’t sound like mine when I say it

I’m not okay  
like it belongs to a version of me I can’t reach

I’m not okay  
and I keep saying it like it’s already over

[Outro – fading, incomplete thoughts, unresolved phrasing]
I don’t really know where this stops being me  
or if it already did

I guess I’ll just leave it here  
because I don’t have more to give it

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Minimal piano pop, emotional ballad, stripped indie pop, slow cinematic feel, distant breathy female vocals