Diary of a Borderline Mind

Dear diary, it’s 8 a.m.
I think today I’ll be okay
I feel it in the way I breathe
Like maybe nothing breaks today

I tell myself “just stay calm”
Like I’ve got something to prove
Maybe if I play it right
I won’t have to come unglued

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Pre-Chorus

But I’ve said this all before
Like I don’t know how it ends
Every promise that I make
Starts to slip through my hands

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Chorus

My diary of this borderline mind
Every hour drawing a different line
I’m up, I’m down, I’m losing time
Trying to keep up with what’s inside

Every feeling amplified
Every thought I can’t outrun
It’s a war I try to escape
But there is no where I can run

Reading words I don’t remember saying
Running from myself between these pages

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Verse 2 

It’s 2 p.m., I feel too much
Every word hits way too deep
I read between the smallest lines
If feels like something wants make me bleed

I overthink a simple text
Like it’s the end of everything
Turn a moment into chaos
From a tiny little thing

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Pre-Chorus 2

Now I’m spiraling again
And I don’t know how to stop
It’s like I’m watching from outside
While I’m coming undone on the spot

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Chorus 

My diary of this borderline mind
Every hour drawing a different line
I’m up, I’m down, I’m losing time
Trying to keep up with what’s inside

Every feeling amplified
Every thought I can’t outrun
It’s a war I try to escape
But there is no where I can run

Reading words I don’t remember saying
Running from myself between these pages

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Bridge

It’s 1 a.m., I hate myself
For everything I said today
I didn’t mean to lose control
But I still pushed them all away

I swear tomorrow I’ll be better
I swear I’ll finally get it right
But I’ve made that same promise
Every single night

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Final Chorus 

My diary of this borderline mind
Every hour drawing a different line
I’m up, I’m down, I’m losing time
Trying to keep up with what’s inside

Every feeling amplified
Every thought I can’t outrun
It’s a war I try to escape
But there is no where I can run

Reading words I don’t remember saying
Running from myself between these pages
Will I ever win this nightmare I’m in

Emotional indie pop, soft piano, ambient textures, female vocals, introspective, dynamic shifts from calm to overwhelmed