While you slept

Verse 1

You said I checked off every box

Back when I was seventeen

I built a home inside your heart

Or at least that’s what it seemed

But years went by and I got lost

In shadows I could never fight

Competing with a million girls

On glowing screens at night

You told me I was beautiful

But your eyes were somewhere else

And I kept breaking pieces off

Just to be somebody else

Pre-Chorus

I thought if I got skinnier

Maybe you’d finally see

The girl who loved you through it all

Was standing right where she’d always be

Chorus

While you slept, I cried alone

Begging God to save our home

Holding all the weight we made

Trying to fix what you wouldn’t face

You called me controlling

You called me your mother

When all I ever wanted

Was to be chosen over another

I gave you grace, I gave you years

I carried all these silent fears

And now I’m standing at the door

Wondering what I’m fighting for

While you slept…

Verse 2

Every time I tried to speak

You turned the mirror back on me

Somehow I became the storm

While drowning in your sea

I’d ask you just to stay with me

One night instead of somewhere else

Not because I wanted control

But because I needed help

Needed proof that I still mattered

Needed proof that love was real

Needed one small sign from you

To know the wounds could heal

Pre-Chorus

But your promises were whispers

Your actions told another truth

And I’m exhausted from believing

In the boy I once knew

Chorus

While you slept, I cried alone

Begging God to save our home

Holding all the weight we made

Trying to fix what you wouldn’t face

You called me controlling

You called me your mother

When all I ever wanted

Was to be chosen over another

I gave you grace, I gave you years

I carried all these silent fears

And now I’m standing at the door

Wondering what I’m fighting for

While you slept…

Bridge

I remember when we were kids

You’d hold my hand like letting go would kill you

Now I’m the only one still holding on

And maybe you are changing

Maybe this is how you try

But love can’t survive on “maybe”

When I’m dying inside

So tell me…

Do I uproot my whole life?

Do I leave the dreams we grew?

Or keep the peace and keep pretending

That I’m not losing me for you?

Final Chorus

While you slept, I learned the truth

Love shouldn’t have to beg for proof

And all these years I spent believing

I was the reason you were leaving

Maybe I was never lacking

Maybe I was never wrong

Maybe all this time I carried

A weight that wasn’t mine to hold

And if I walk away someday

Know it wasn’t for lack of love

It was because I finally realized

I deserved to be chosen

The way I always chose you

While you slept…

I disappeared

Trying to save us both.