Verse 1
You said I checked off every box
Back when I was seventeen
I built a home inside your heart
Or at least that’s what it seemed
But years went by and I got lost
In shadows I could never fight
Competing with a million girls
On glowing screens at night
You told me I was beautiful
But your eyes were somewhere else
And I kept breaking pieces off
Just to be somebody else
Pre-Chorus
I thought if I got skinnier
Maybe you’d finally see
The girl who loved you through it all
Was standing right where she’d always be
Chorus
While you slept, I cried alone
Begging God to save our home
Holding all the weight we made
Trying to fix what you wouldn’t face
You called me controlling
You called me your mother
When all I ever wanted
Was to be chosen over another
I gave you grace, I gave you years
I carried all these silent fears
And now I’m standing at the door
Wondering what I’m fighting for
While you slept…
Verse 2
Every time I tried to speak
You turned the mirror back on me
Somehow I became the storm
While drowning in your sea
I’d ask you just to stay with me
One night instead of somewhere else
Not because I wanted control
But because I needed help
Needed proof that I still mattered
Needed proof that love was real
Needed one small sign from you
To know the wounds could heal
Pre-Chorus
But your promises were whispers
Your actions told another truth
And I’m exhausted from believing
In the boy I once knew
Chorus
While you slept, I cried alone
Begging God to save our home
Holding all the weight we made
Trying to fix what you wouldn’t face
You called me controlling
You called me your mother
When all I ever wanted
Was to be chosen over another
I gave you grace, I gave you years
I carried all these silent fears
And now I’m standing at the door
Wondering what I’m fighting for
While you slept…
Bridge
I remember when we were kids
You’d hold my hand like letting go would kill you
Now I’m the only one still holding on
And maybe you are changing
Maybe this is how you try
But love can’t survive on “maybe”
When I’m dying inside
So tell me…
Do I uproot my whole life?
Do I leave the dreams we grew?
Or keep the peace and keep pretending
That I’m not losing me for you?
Final Chorus
While you slept, I learned the truth
Love shouldn’t have to beg for proof
And all these years I spent believing
I was the reason you were leaving
Maybe I was never lacking
Maybe I was never wrong
Maybe all this time I carried
A weight that wasn’t mine to hold
And if I walk away someday
Know it wasn’t for lack of love
It was because I finally realized
I deserved to be chosen
The way I always chose you
While you slept…
I disappeared
Trying to save us both.