Behind these Emerald Gates

Verse 1

I say I’m good before you ask

Like I’ve already rehearsed the line

Smile just enough to pass

Like everything’s fine

You look at me like you believe me

And I don’t know how that could be

How do I look so put together

When I’m coming apart at the seams?

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Pre-Chorus

I keep it tucked behind my teeth

Hoping nothing slips out

I can make it through the moment

I must pretend I’m strong enough

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Chorus

Behind these emerald gates

I say everything’s okay

While my mind is running circles

I can’t find a way to escape

You see calm, you see control

You don’t see what it takes

To hold myself together

Behind these emerald gates

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Verse 2

I overthink every second, every day

Replaying every word I should have changed

Convincing myself you hate me

Over something in my head

I nod along, I laugh it off

Like it didn’t hit too deep

But I’m carrying the weight of it

Long after you leave

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Pre-Chorus 2

If I let it show for one second

Would you see me differently?

Or would you turn into someone

Who wouldn’t stay with me?

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Bridge

I don’t know how to be honest

Without it scaring you away

So I filter every feeling

Till there’s nothing real to say

And I hate the way you trust me

While I’m hiding everything

But it’s easier to lose myself

Than risk losing anything

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Final Chorus

Behind these emerald gates

I’m barely holding shape

You see someone steady

But I’m one breath from the break

You see calm, you see control

But it’s all I can create

Just to keep you from seeing

Behind these emerald gates