Verse 1
I say I’m good before you ask
Like I’ve already rehearsed the line
Smile just enough to pass
Like everything’s fine
You look at me like you believe me
And I don’t know how that could be
How do I look so put together
When I’m coming apart at the seams?
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Pre-Chorus
I keep it tucked behind my teeth
Hoping nothing slips out
I can make it through the moment
I must pretend I’m strong enough
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Chorus
Behind these emerald gates
I say everything’s okay
While my mind is running circles
I can’t find a way to escape
You see calm, you see control
You don’t see what it takes
To hold myself together
Behind these emerald gates
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Verse 2
I overthink every second, every day
Replaying every word I should have changed
Convincing myself you hate me
Over something in my head
I nod along, I laugh it off
Like it didn’t hit too deep
But I’m carrying the weight of it
Long after you leave
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Pre-Chorus 2
If I let it show for one second
Would you see me differently?
Or would you turn into someone
Who wouldn’t stay with me?
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Bridge
I don’t know how to be honest
Without it scaring you away
So I filter every feeling
Till there’s nothing real to say
And I hate the way you trust me
While I’m hiding everything
But it’s easier to lose myself
Than risk losing anything
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Final Chorus
Behind these emerald gates
I’m barely holding shape
You see someone steady
But I’m one breath from the break
You see calm, you see control
But it’s all I can create
Just to keep you from seeing
Behind these emerald gates
HexandHalo
