I hate goodbyes

(Verse 1)
I get hurt ‘cause I get too close
Cling to people that don’t want me the most
I swear I see something that isn’t there
Like I matter to someone… like someone cares

I’m stupid as hell for believing that lie
Thinking I’m more than a passin’ by
I give ‘em my time, my trust, my breath
They give me distance… then nothing left

I watch ‘em leave with that fake-ass smile
Feed me empty words just to stay a while
“Keep your head up,” “you’ll be okay”
Same recycled shit as they walk away

(Pre-Chorus)
I should be numb, I should feel less
But every time it just digs in my chest
Like I never learned, like I don’t know pain
Like I still expect something to change

(Chorus)
I should be used to it, used to the rot
Used to being everything people forgot
But every time they leave, it cuts me clean
Like ripping out parts they’ve never seen

Why does it feel like I’m dying slow?
Every goodbye takes more than it shows
Piece by piece, I disappear
Til there’s nothing left but the hurt in here

(Verse 2)
I stay too long where I’m not wanted
Haunted by faces that left me haunted
I replay words that meant nothing at all
Tryna find meaning in the way that they fall

I pour myself out till there’s nothing inside
Then wonder why I feel hollow and dry
I give ‘em the parts I don’t even keep
Now I’m just bones with a heartbeat

(Pre-Chorus)
I tell myself, “don’t get attached”
But I still reach out, still relapse
Into needing someone to stay
Even knowing they’ll fade away

(Chorus)
I should be used to it, used to the rot
Used to being everything people forgot
But every time they leave, it cuts me clean
Like ripping out parts they’ve never seen

Why does it feel like I’m dying slow?
Every goodbye takes more than it shows
Piece by piece, I disappear
Til there’s nothing left but the hurt in here

(Bridge)
I’m always the one left in the dirt
Like I was never alive, never worth
Soon as I’m gone, they won’t even notice
Just another name that nobody holds

I rot in silence, I bleed in my head
Smile on my face while I’m already dead
If this is healing, I don’t want none
‘Cause every “better day” never comes

(Outro)
I should be used to it… yeah, I should know
But it still feels like a personal blow
Every time someone lets me go—
It proves what I am…

Disposable.

Heavy base heavy emotional beat