Hi there

I don’t cry no more, I just sit and stare
Like I’m already gone but I’m still right here
Every breath feel borrowed, every smile fake
Every night I’m praying that I don’t wake

I gave you my heart, yeah I handed it clean
Now it’s buried somewhere in a place I’ve never seen
You don’t even know what you took when you left
Now I’m stuck with the silence

Got ghosts in my chest, they don’t let me rest
Got love in my veins but it’s all been stressed
I give it away like it don’t mean shit
Then wonder why I’m the one losing it

(Pre-Chorus)
I’m not falling apart… I already fell
Just a body that’s breathing inside of a shell

(Chorus)
I may be messed up but I got a big heart
Don’t hurt it or I’ll fuck you up
You take what I give then you tear me apart
Now I’m numb as hell, yeah I’m stuck in the dark

(Verse 2)
I don’t miss you, I miss who I used to be
Before everything started collapsing in me
Before every thought had a weight and a cost
Before I understood what it meant to be lost

Now I drift through days like they’re not even mine
Like I’m stuck in a loop that keeps eating my time
I don’t chase happiness, I don’t fight the pain
I just sit in the middle and let it remain

(Pre-Chorus)
I don’t break anymore… I just stay this way
Like the light gave up trying to make me okay

(Chorus)
I been used, been lied to, been thrown away
Still I show up with love like it’s gonna stay
Like maybe this time they won’t break my chest
Like maybe this time I can finally rest

(Bridge)
Maybe I’m stupid for loving this way
Maybe I’m broken and meant to decay
Maybe my heart don’t belong in my chest
Maybe it beats just to fail every test

But I can’t change it, it’s all that I am
Even when I’m bleeding, I still give a damn
Even when I’m drowning, I reach for your hand
Even when I know… you won’t understand

(Outro)
So go on, take it, like everyone did
Another chapter of a heart that won’t quit
I’ll keep on giving till I fall apart…

I may be destroyed—
…but I got a big heart

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