Untitled

I’m tired of holdin’ back while they steady testin’ me,

Family throwin’ threats like they really got the best of me,

Cursed out, talked down, all this fake hostility,

And my own people clueless to this whole damn misery.

Every day I bite my tongue, every night I lose sleep,

Tryna keep the peace but this pressure cuttin’ too deep,

They don’t know the demon that I really gotta fight,

‘Cause one wrong move and I’ma turn this dark into night.

I could fight fire with fire, let it all burn down,

Show ‘em I ain’t weak, I can shake the whole ground,

But I’m holdin’ on tight, even when I lose control,

Tryna save my heart before the anger takes my soul.

I’m one spark away from crashin’ out tonight,

One word away from turnin’ pain into a fight,

You don’t know how hard it is to stay calm,

When they throwin’ all this pressure and disrespect nonstop.

I been silent too long, carryin’ this weight alone,

Tryna build a future while they tryna break our home,

I could burn it all down, let the whole world see,

But I’m still standin’ here fightin’ the war inside me.

Everybody got opinions, nobody know the facts,

They judge me off emotions while I’m carryin’ attacks,

I done swallowed all this anger just to keep us intact,

But respect ain’t respect when it never come back.

I ain’t scared of nobody, let’s be clear on that,

I just know once I snap, ain’t no bringin’ me back,

That’s why I disappear when it get too loud,

‘Cause I’m tryna heal pain, not make my mama proud of a mugshot now.

Tell me why I gotta suffer just to love somebody?

Why it feel like every day they wanna start somebody?

I been tryna keep my soul from turnin’ cold-hearted,

But this pressure buildin’ up and I’m exhausted.

I’m one spark away from losin’ everything I built,

Tryna carry all this anger, all this pain, all this guilt,

Still I’m holdin’ myself back from the edge I could cross,

‘Cause once the flames rise up, everybody take a loss.

So before I let the fire take control of me,

I just need somebody here to finally hear me.