[Intro: Soft Rhodes Chords, Crying Electric Guitar & 528Hz Solfeggio Hum]
(Mmm, yeah...)
Thought I was done with the fallout, yeah
Thought I was done with the mess I made
(Sha-ma-ha-ra-ta, bring me back to steady ground!)
Listen close
[Verse 1: Low, Intimate R&B Pocket]
What is it now with me today?
Same old loop in my chest
Thought I left that wreck behind me
Thought I put it all to rest
Why do I fold this quick
When your name lights up my phone?
I cut ties with what kept me stuck
Said I’d rather be alone
I told you I was done
That was a month before this call
Saw you crying over your boys
And it hit me in the chest, that’s all
You turned your whole life inside out
Just to get them back where you are
So I stepped back, let it go
Couldn’t keep pretending hard
I burned too much gas
Too many nights trying to explain
I’m not walking circles
I’m not doing that again
[Pre-Chorus: Heavy Snaps & Bass Pulse Starts]
Then I heard you said I’d come
That we could patch up what we broke
I was open, I was hoping
Then you let my call go
Said some drunk had got your kids
Too far gone, you had to leave
I asked for one real answer
But you still couldn’t reach me
So I knew we’d never land
On the same side of the road
Just another half-lit chapter
In a story that got cold
[Beat Drop: Heavy slow 808 sub-bass slams in]
[Chorus: Explosive Trap-Soul Belt & Heavy 808 Drop]
Was I just the backup line
While you figured out your life? (Backup line!)
I kept reading in the static
Kept my name there on the side
I wanted you to show up
Say my name and make it true, make it stick (Make it stick!)
But you left me in the middle
Like that was all you knew to do
You never even held me
Still you lived inside my head
Now I’m sliding out your orbit
And I’m not circling back again! (O-O-Orbit!)
[Verse 2: Snappy, Melodic Rap Cadence]
And then there’s you
Yeah, I should’ve known better
Sneaky link turned sideways fast
Like a text I never meant to send her
Your brother knows my baby dad
Small town, bad timing
One more step and it gets messy
So I kept it from crossing lines
We talked again after eight years
Like maybe it meant something new
Had that spark, had that pull
Thought I could read you through
But it was all on my side
You were never really in
Left me holding all my pride
And that’s where the hurt begins
[Pre-Chorus: Subtle Snaps & Heavy Bass Swell]
I saw your mom the other day
Had to keep it cool
Too mad at my baby dad
For moving like a fool
Trying to block what isn’t his
Trying to run my whole life
Tell me who I can and can’t love
Tell me who I can call my type
I’m stepping out the gray
I’m not staying in that fog
Washing off what wasn’t mine
Letting go of what went wrong
[Bridge: Acapella Breakdown & Rhythmic Jazz Scats]
(Ka-ra-ba-sha-ta... hey, hey)
No more chasing, no more pain
(Skrrt-bap-bop, let it break!)
I survived the whole thing
Six months of the back-and-forth
Six months of learning my name
Every time I almost folded
I came back sharper than the blame
I’m stronger than the static
Stronger than the noise
(Three, two, one — bring it back!)
I chose me, now hear my voice!
[Chorus: Full Force Maximum Peak & Shouting Choir]
Was I just the backup line
While you figured out your life? (Backup line!)
I kept reading in the static
Kept my name there on the side
I wanted you to show up
Say my name and make it true, make it stick!
But you left me in the middle
Like that was all you knew to do
You never even held me
Still you lived inside my head
Now I’m sliding out your orbit
And I’m not circling back again!
[Outro: Slow Outro Fade, Rhodes Piano & Soft Slide Guitar]
Settle down and breathe
No more looping through the same
Say my name and make it true
I’m not carrying your name
All is well
Yeah, I’m bold, mmm, yeah
I’m sliding out your orbit
I’m not circling back again
Amen
[Fade Out]
[End]
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