Return by Death (Subaru Natsuki)

[Intro – Distorted, Echoing]
Again…?
No… no no no—
Not this shit again…
[Verse 1]
I die, I wake, I scream, repeat,
Same damn pain, same heartbeat.
Blood on my hands, I try to save,
Every timeline turns to a grave.
I’m not a hero, I’m barely sane,
Smiling outside, inside is pain.
You see courage — I see fear,
I’ve watched you die too many years.
Knife in my chest, breath going cold,
Memories stack, my mind won’t hold.
You don’t know what it costs to try,
When every failure means you die.
I beg, I break, I lose control,
Every reset eats my soul.
You call it strength? Nah, it’s a curse,
Every new life just gets worse.
[Hook]
Return by death — I’m trapped in time,
Suffering loop, I pay the price.
Say I’m weak, but I still stand,
Bleeding fate through broken hands.
Return by death — no escape,
Every choice just seals my fate.
If I fall, I rise again—
Just to watch it all end.
[Verse 2]
I tried to run, I tried to quit,
But their lives? I can’t forget.
Emilia smile, Rem’s last breath,
Every memory stitched with death.
You think I’m brave? I’m terrified,
I just got nowhere left to hide.
Every path I calculate,
Still end up watching heaven fade.
I scream for help — nobody hears,
Just echoes drowning in my fears.
I know the ending, seen it twice,
Still roll the dice, still pay the price.
Witch in the shadows gripping tight,
Whispering softly every night.
Love or curse? I can’t define,
But she’s the reason I rewind.
[Bridge – Breaking Down]
How many times…
Do I gotta die…
Before I get it right…?
[Final Hook – More Intense]
Return by death — no control,
Every loop erodes my soul.
Still I fight, still I bleed,
Even when it’s killing me.
Return by death — curse my name,
I’ll reset this broken game.
Even if I lose my mind—
I won’t leave them all behind.

Emotional rap, broken male voice, frantic shifts, dark piano, eerie choir, ticking clock, whispers, anime OST despair