[Intro – melodic autotuned vocals]
Yeah… yeah, yeah
Oxy in my cup, devil in my bed
Voices in my head, they won’t let me rest
Told my momma I’d be fine, but I’m a fuckin’ mess
Pour it up, light it up…
I ain’t even scared of death
[Hook]
I been poppin’ pills just to numb what I feel
Heart been broke so long, I forgot what’s real
They say time heals, but this shit still kill
I don’t talk to God ‘cause I know he won’t heal
I’m fading fast, can’t go back
Lost my soul in a double cup trap
Say you love me, that’s all cap
I was dying inside when you said that
Yeah, yeah… I was dying inside when you said that
[Verse 1]
Woke up in a room full of ghosts again
Demons laughin’ loud like we close as friends
Told that bitch I’m fine, but I lied again
I been ridin’ through hell in a Rari Benz
Got a .40 in my lap, not for show
It’s for the nights I might not make it home
They ain’t checkin’ in when I feel alone
Only call when I’m up or I’m on a song
Pop two Xans just to quiet my brain
Now I’m starin’ at the ceiling, tryna numb the pain
They say I’m the one, but I feel so drained
If I OD tonight, would they scream my name?
[Hook – Repeat]
I been poppin’ pills just to numb what I feel
Heart been broke so long, I forgot what’s real
They say time heals, but this shit still kill
I don’t talk to God ‘cause I know he won’t heal
I’m fading fast, can’t go back
Lost my soul in a double cup trap
Say you love me, that’s all cap
I was dying inside when you said that
Yeah, yeah… I was dying inside when you said that
[Bridge – soft sung vocals]
I don’t feel shit, and that scares me
I’m my own worst enemy, clearly
Voices in the dark sayin’ “end it early”
Hope I make it past thirty… barely
[Verse 2 – rap flow picks up slightly]
I done seen the best fall to addiction
Felt the love turn fake with conviction
Now I got trust issues, can’t fix ’em
Tryna drown pain in prescriptions
Love’s just a word to the ones who break it
Told me I’m enough, but I knew you was fakin’
Left my heart in the past with the snakes and the fake shit
Now I’m just vacant, vacant…
[Hook – Final]
I been poppin’ pills just to numb what I feel
Heart been broke so long, I forgot what’s real
They say time heals, but this shit still kill
I don’t talk to God ‘cause I know he won’t heal
I’m fading fast, can’t go back
Lost my soul in a double cup trap
Say you love me, that’s all cap
I was dying inside when you said that
Yeah… yeah… yeah
I was dying inside when you said that
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