Fading Fast

Yeah… yeah, yeah

Oxy in my cup, devil in my bed

Voices in my head, they won’t let me rest

Told my momma I’d be fine, but I’m a fuckin’ mess

Pour it up, light it up…

I ain’t even scared of death

I been poppin’ pills just to numb what I feel

Heart been broke so long, I forgot what’s real

They say time heals, but this shit still kill

I don’t talk to God ‘cause I know he won’t heal

I’m fading fast, can’t go back

Lost my soul in a double cup trap

Say you love me, that’s all cap

I was dying inside when you said that

Yeah, yeah… I was dying inside when you said that

Woke up in a room full of ghosts again

Demons laughin’ loud like we close as friends

Told that bitch I’m fine, but I lied again

I been ridin’ through hell in a Rari Benz

Got a .40 in my lap, not for show

It’s for the nights I might not make it home

They ain’t checkin’ in when I feel alone

Only call when I’m up or I’m on a song

Pop two Xans just to quiet my brain

Now I’m starin’ at the ceiling, tryna numb the pain

They say I’m the one, but I feel so drained

If I OD tonight, would they scream my name?

I been poppin’ pills just to numb what I feel

Heart been broke so long, I forgot what’s real

They say time heals, but this shit still kill

I don’t talk to God ‘cause I know he won’t heal

I’m fading fast, can’t go back

Lost my soul in a double cup trap

Say you love me, that’s all cap

I was dying inside when you said that

Yeah, yeah… I was dying inside when you said that

I don’t feel shit, and that scares me

I’m my own worst enemy, clearly

Voices in the dark sayin’ “end it early”

Hope I make it past thirty… barely

I done seen the best fall to addiction

Felt the love turn fake with conviction

Now I got trust issues, can’t fix ’em

Tryna drown pain in prescriptions

Love’s just a word to the ones who break it

Told me I’m enough, but I knew you was fakin’

Left my heart in the past with the snakes and the fake shit

Now I’m just vacant, vacant…

I been poppin’ pills just to numb what I feel

Heart been broke so long, I forgot what’s real

They say time heals, but this shit still kill

I don’t talk to God ‘cause I know he won’t heal

I’m fading fast, can’t go back

Lost my soul in a double cup trap

Say you love me, that’s all cap

I was dying inside when you said that

Yeah… yeah… yeah

I was dying inside when you said that