(Yeahhh… ohhh)
Voice full of pain, but I still sing loud
Tears in the booth, I don’t do no crowds
Heart too cold for a wedding vow
But I still love like I ain’t been let down
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[Chorus:]
Heaven ain’t for us, we from the block where angels bleed
Raised around them sirens, never learned what peace could mean
Told shorty I’m numb, she said she still gon’ ride for me
I don’t pray too much, but I got demons that I need freed
Heart full of wounds, they don’t heal right
Tryna change, but I still fight
Soul cracked like a screen light
And I still walk through them streetlights
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[Verse 1:]
I been in corners where hope get shot
Watchin’ lil bros turn ghost on the spot
Mama work two jobs, pops got locked
So I learned how to love from the things I’m not
Grew up fast, couldn’t wait for the change
But the pain hit quick when you play in the rain
These scars ain’t light, they come with a name
And I keep it on me, I’m not just sayin’
Love don’t live here, just PTSD
Trust get low when you come from the East
I ain’t heartless, but I move like a beast
Cause bein’ soft got one of my brothers deceased
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[Bridge:]
Can’t show love too early
They’ll flip on you when you ain’t sturdy
That’s why I walk with pain in my hoodie
And talk to God like, “Do You still hear me?”
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[Chorus:]
Heaven ain’t for us, we from the block where angels bleed
Raised around them sirens, never learned what peace could mean
Told shorty I’m numb, she said she still gon’ ride for me
I don’t pray too much, but I got demons that I need freed
Heart full of wounds, they don’t heal right
Tryna change, but I still fight
Soul cracked like a screen light
And I still walk through them streetlights
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[Verse 2:]
Talked to my brother last night in a dream
He said, “Stay woke, it ain’t all what it seems”
I wake up sweatin’, reachin’ for beams
Wishin’ this rap shit could wash me clean
Love a girl who held it down through the drought
Even when I was trappin’ just to figure life out
She said, “You hard, but I see the kid in your frown
You want peace, but this pain too loud”
Every step feel like I’m walkin’ through mud
Tryna smile, but I’m coughin’ up blood
Life taught me to run from the hugs
Cause too many hugs came with shrugs
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[Outro:]
(Yeah… heaven ain’t for us)
But I still dream like it’s close enough
Still write songs when I feel too much
Still got love, even when it’s tough
RusManTv
