Ain’t For Us

(Yeahhh… ohhh)

Voice full of pain, but I still sing loud

Tears in the booth, I don’t do no crowds

Heart too cold for a wedding vow

But I still love like I ain’t been let down

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Heaven ain’t for us, we from the block where angels bleed

Raised around them sirens, never learned what peace could mean

Told shorty I’m numb, she said she still gon’ ride for me

I don’t pray too much, but I got demons that I need freed

Heart full of wounds, they don’t heal right

Tryna change, but I still fight

Soul cracked like a screen light

And I still walk through them streetlights

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I been in corners where hope get shot

Watchin’ lil bros turn ghost on the spot

Mama work two jobs, pops got locked

So I learned how to love from the things I’m not

Grew up fast, couldn’t wait for the change

But the pain hit quick when you play in the rain

These scars ain’t light, they come with a name

And I keep it on me, I’m not just sayin’

Love don’t live here, just PTSD

Trust get low when you come from the East

I ain’t heartless, but I move like a beast

Cause bein’ soft got one of my brothers deceased

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Can’t show love too early

They’ll flip on you when you ain’t sturdy

That’s why I walk with pain in my hoodie

And talk to God like, “Do You still hear me?”

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Heaven ain’t for us, we from the block where angels bleed

Raised around them sirens, never learned what peace could mean

Told shorty I’m numb, she said she still gon’ ride for me

I don’t pray too much, but I got demons that I need freed

Heart full of wounds, they don’t heal right

Tryna change, but I still fight

Soul cracked like a screen light

And I still walk through them streetlights

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Talked to my brother last night in a dream

He said, “Stay woke, it ain’t all what it seems”

I wake up sweatin’, reachin’ for beams

Wishin’ this rap shit could wash me clean

Love a girl who held it down through the drought

Even when I was trappin’ just to figure life out

She said, “You hard, but I see the kid in your frown

You want peace, but this pain too loud”

Every step feel like I’m walkin’ through mud

Tryna smile, but I’m coughin’ up blood

Life taught me to run from the hugs

Cause too many hugs came with shrugs

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(Yeah… heaven ain’t for us)

But I still dream like it’s close enough

Still write songs when I feel too much

Still got love, even when it’s tough