Never Felt Real

Mmm… yeah

Cap-alot

I been talkin’ to my pain like it’s all I got

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I gave love I ain’t get back

Seen my homie fade to nothin’ — now his pic just where we sip at

Mama said “pray more,” I just grip straps

Scared to close my eyes, nightmares tryna spin back

I was up in storms with no umbrella

Had to fake peace, turn pain into pressure

Now I got ice but it never made me better

Still feel broke when I count all this cheddar

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Lately, I been numb in a crowd full of smiles

They all look alive, but I ain’t felt that in a while

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‘Cause nothin’ ever felt real

Pain got a grip, I don’t know how to heal

Tryna stay solid with a heart I can’t feel

Voices in my head like, “Boy, you should chill”

But I’m still spinnin’ like wheels

Still tryna climb, stuck in the field

God, if you hear me, just show me what’s real

‘Cause nothin’ in my life ever really felt real

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I been walkin’ on this wire

Fake friends burn bridges, I ain’t trippin’ — I light fires

Used to dream peace, now I dream tires

Runnin’ from my past like the ghost wore a wire

Now they say “Capálot you next”

But don’t know the nights I ain’t even wanna text

Wanted to vanish, heart on my chest

Like a target in a warzone, beggin’ for rest

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I can’t tell what’s fake no more

Even love come with a price at the door

I give and I give, but it never restore

Tell me what I’m even doin’ this for

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Nothin’ ever felt real

Pain in my chest, and I’m beggin’ to heal

Tryna stay strong, but I’m losing the will

Tell me if I fall, would you still be still?

I’m still runnin’ uphill

Still tryna climb out the guilt that I feel

God, if you listenin’, give me somethin’ to feel

‘Cause nothin’ in my life ever really felt real

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Yeah…

Cap-alot

If you ever felt numb, this one’s for you