Fear

(Verse 1)

I grew up in the darkness, had nobody by my side,

Learned to bottle every tear, learned to bury it inside.

Talkin’ to the ceiling ‘cause nobody gave a damn,

Just a scared little kid tryna figure out who I am.

Every night felt endless, every day felt the same,

Carried all that hurt around like a tattoo of pain.

I was lost in my own head, couldn’t find no light,

Just fightin’ all my demons every goddamn night.

(Verse 2)

Then I found love, swear it felt like heaven’s touch,

For the first time in my life, I didn’t hurt as much.

You looked into my eyes and somehow saw my soul,

Made a broken person feel a little more whole.

Thought maybe this was it, maybe pain would finally end,

Maybe I had found my lover and my closest friend.

But life don’t play fair, it never gives a warning sign,

One minute you were mine, then you weren’t fuckin’ mine.

(Verse 3)

Back to bein’ alone with a shattered heart again,

Starin’ at old messages while drownin’ in the pain.

Felt like givin’ up, felt like I had lost the fight,

Couldn’t see a future, couldn’t see a single light.

Every scar reopened, every wound began to bleed,

Every lonely memory became a thing I’d feed.

I kept askin’ myself what the hell I’m livin’ for,

When the person that I loved walked right out the door.

(Verse 4)

Then somehow love found me when I least expected it,

When I was at my lowest and completely sick of it.

You walked into my life and gave my heart a spark,

Started buildin’ little fires in the middle of the dark.

Now I’m happy, but I’m scared as hell at the same time,

‘Cause I know how fast love can become a damn goodbye.

I hold you a little tighter when you’re layin’ by my side,

Afraid one day I’ll wake up and watch another love die.

(Half Verse / Outro)

So if I seem distant, baby, that’s the reason why,

I’ve had too many people tell me “forever” then goodbye.

I love you with my whole heart, every scar and every piece,

But I’m terrified of losin’ the one thing that gives me peace.

‘Cause after all the darkness and the fucked-up roads I’ve crossed,

I finally found somethin’ real… and I’m scared of gettin’ lost.