THE STANDING BEFORE THE FALL
©️mary🦂🌺
(Atmospheric R&B Soul / Cinematic Release)
[Intro — breath / distant layered hum]
Maybe…
I rehearsed the heartbreak
before it ever came…
Maybe I built a shelter
inside the ache…
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[Verse 1]
I learned to sleep beside
the sound of leaving,
even while your hands
still reached for mine…
I memorized the silence
before it happened,
counting every fracture
between the lines.
And God knows—
I could’ve fallen
into softer arms,
into borrowed comfort,
temporary stars…
But my spirit
was already kneeling
before the dark…
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[Pre-Chorus]
So if I break—
let it be holy…
If I bend—
don’t let me disappear…
I don’t wanna love
just to escape the fear…
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[Chorus — emotional release]
Don’t save me
just because I’m drowning—
I still remember
how to breathe…
And I…
I will not trade my soul
for arms that only hold
what’s bleeding out of me…
If I rise—
I rise clean…
If I cry—
let Heaven hear me…
Not because somebody caught me—
but because…
I chose…
to stand…
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[Post-Chorus — airy / layered]
Ahhh—
standing through the shaking…
Ahhh—
standing while I break…
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[Verse 2]
There are nights
I almost call the ghosts back,
almost romanticize the pain…
Almost convince myself
that loneliness
and love
are still the same…
But no—
I know the taste
of false rescue,
the kind that kisses wounds
but leaves the soul bruised…
And I’d rather walk
through fire slowly
than wake untouched
but untrue…
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[Pre-Chorus 2]
So if You hold me—
hold me inward…
Teach my trembling bones
to stay…
Because I don’t want another body
standing in Your place…
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[Chorus — bigger / layered harmony]
Don’t save me
just because I’m drowning—
I still remember
how to breathe…
And I…
I will not trade my soul
for arms that only hold
what’s bleeding out of me…
If I rise—
I rise clean…
If I cry—
let Heaven hear me…
Not because somebody caught me—
but because…
I chose…
to stand…
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[Bridge — Evanescence-style emotional eruption]
I am not abandoned—
I am rebuilding…
I am not empty—
I am becoming…
Every shattered piece
beneath my skin
is learning
how to sing again—
And even if I tremble…
even if I crawl…
I will not lose myself
inside the fall…
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[Final Chorus — soaring]
Don’t save me…
Don’t save me…
I was never asking
to be rescued—
Only strengthened
enough
to remain…
If I rise—
I rise clean…
If I burn—
let it remake me…
Not because somebody loved me—
but because…
God…
saw me…
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[Outro — whisper]
And I stood…
before the fall…
…and stayed.
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