Never Really Gone

When I close my eyes, I feel your touch

I feel your breath, your heartbeat close to my chest

I feel everything of you

And I don’t see myself

I see a light in front of me

The breeze, the illusion of cold air

Blowing warm, scented kisses

I recognize from your lips

Then I open them—my big brown eyes

And you are only there

When I close them

Never really here

Never really gone

I keep finding you

In places you don’t belong

My eyes learned your shape

In every shade I see

You live in the dark

That still remembers me

I still look for you

In between shadows and shades

Where we used to sit together

Wildflowers and bees hovering

Bothered by our laughter

I still look for you

As I hold my chest so tight

My heart beats—unstoppable, aching

I lose my breath

Chasing even a trace

Of your scent passing by

I hold on to them

My eyes learned to search everywhere

Never really here

Never really gone

I keep calling you

In echoes I hold on

My body remembers

What my hands can’t reach

You’re a ghost in my senses

A silence that speaks

Why did it end

When we never began with a name?

I was yours, you were mine

But nothing stayed the same

Only within

Those broken glasses we wore

We looked like forever

But we were never more

Never really here

Never really gone

So I close my eyes

Just to hold you on