[Verse 1]
We were just kids in the crossfire
Laughing at the danger like it can’t find us
Now it’s quiet in the seats where my friends sat
Names carved in the desk, I still tap that
Brothers in dust
Same blood, same bus, then the brakes cut
I can smell that night when I close my eyes
Metal in my mouth, someone else’s cries
They call it lucky that I lived through
But every mirror in the house says I killed you
Every heartbeat, every flash, every siren
Got a graveyard walking round inside me
[Chorus]
Brothers in dust, I still hear you calling
Adrenaline rush, now I just feel falling
Survivor’s guilt, it’s a weight, it’s a coffin
Internal demons screaming in the silence, often
Loss in my lungs, I breathe that trauma
Paralyzed soul, playing dead in the drama
Hollow in the chest where my heart got spilled
I ain’t scared of death, I’m scared I never heal (never heal)
[Verse 2]
Therapist asking me the same things
“Tell me how you feel” — I don’t feel a thing
I just see your shoes in the hospital light
Mud on the laces that never got wiped
Mom saying “baby, it was not your fault”
But I was the one who said “let’s go, come on”
Every joke that night is a sharpened blade
Every “it’ll be fine” is a bad charade
I got ghosts in my throat when I try to pray
Got a life on lease that I didn’t pay
If I smile in a photo, it twists my gut
How can I move on when you’re still stuck?
[Chorus]
Brothers in dust, I still hear you calling
Adrenaline rush, now I just feel falling
Survivor’s guilt, it’s a weight, it’s a coffin
Internal demons screaming in the silence, often
Loss in my lungs, I breathe that trauma
Paralyzed soul, playing dead in the drama
Hollow in the chest where my heart got spilled
I ain’t scared of death, I’m scared I never heal (never heal)
[Bridge]
I keep your jacket on the same old chair
Can’t wash the stain, can’t scrub the air
If I let go, does it mean I forget?
If I forgive myself, is that disrespect?
So I run in place, on this burning wheel
Chasing every pain just to prove it’s real
If I ever find peace, if the noise goes still
Will you hate me for it
Or would you want me to live?