floating

i don’t cry like i used to

now i just stare at the wall

feel everything and nothing

kinda miss feeling it all

my room’s lit up by my phone screen

3 a.m. conversations with myself

i scroll past lives i don’t live

wonder when i put me on the shelf

everyone’s chasing something

money, love, or a name

i’m just tryna feel steady

not go crazy in the quiet again

they say i’m doing just fine

‘cause i laugh and i show up on time

but they don’t hear my thoughts

when the noise dies

i’ve been floating, not grounded

just here, not around it

smiling out of habit

‘cause explaining sounds exhausting

i don’t hate my life

i just don’t feel in it

like i’m watching myself

from a distance

i keep plans i don’t cancel

but i’m mentally gone

say “i’m good” so casually

like it’s scripted, like it’s law

i miss being excited

over little dumb things

now i overthink silence

and what tomorrow brings

everyone’s loud about healing

posting growth like it’s clean

but nobody talks about numb

or the in-between

i’m not broken, i swear

just tired in my soul

trying to feel real again

trying to feel whole

i’ve been floating, not grounded

just here, not around it

smiling out of habit

‘cause explaining sounds exhausting

i don’t hate my life

i just don’t feel in it

like i’m watching myself

from a distance

maybe one day i’ll wake up

and it won’t feel so gray

maybe i’ll laugh and mean it

not just get through the day

i don’t need saving

i just need time

to feel like my heart

is finally mine

so if you ask how i’m doing

i’ll probably say “okay”

not a lie, not the truth

just somewhere in the middle today