eighteen with a heavy chest
learned real fast how love gets left
phones light up but it don’t feel real
everybody talking, nobody feels
they say words like they don’t cut deep
smiles sharp, yeah, they run like thieves
i’ve watched people turn into ghosts
said forever, then they went cold
i don’t let it show, but i feel it all
every goodbye makes the walls go tall
i wanna trust, but my heart hesitates
‘cause every time i do, it breaks
i’ve lost so many on the way here
learned how to smile through the pain, yeah
i keep a few close, the ones that stay
but i hold my heart like it’s glass these days
i wanna open up, but i’m scared inside
don’t wanna bleed for another goodbye
so i love slow, yeah, i love with fear
‘cause losing people made me careful here
friends turn fake, love turns strange
feel myself trying not to change
i miss the girl who felt safe to fall
now i double-check every call
they don’t see the nights i stay awake
rewriting things i didn’t say
i’m strong, but i’m tired too
of proving i’m unbreakable to you
i don’t let it show, but it gets so loud
all these feelings i don’t talk about
i wanna trust, but my heart’s on guard
‘cause healing leaves a mark
i’ve lost so many on the way here
learned how to smile through the pain, yeah
i keep a few close, the ones that stay
but i hold my heart like it’s glass these days
i wanna open up, but i’m scared inside
don’t wanna bleed for another goodbye
so i love slow, yeah, i love with fear
‘cause losing people made me careful here
maybe one day i’ll let someone in
without shaking, without flinching
maybe love won’t feel like war
maybe i won’t lock the door
i’m still learning how to breathe again
still believing in the good in them
just don’t rush me, i’m healing still
trying to trust what’s real
i’ve lost so many, but i’m still here
still got hope underneath the fear
i keep a few close, that’s how i survive
protecting my peace, protecting my heart
i wanna open up when it feels right
when love feels warm, not like a fight
so i love slow, yeah, i love sincere
‘cause losing people made me careful here
eighteen, still learning how to stay
soft heart, but i’m okay
i’m careful now, but i’m still real
and one day, love won’t hurt this bad to feel
hailey_mckenzie
