I wake up already behind
Like the day been waitin on me to fail
My phone light burn my eyes
Another reminder I’m still here somehow
I don’t talk about it much
But the quiet get loud at night
When the world stop askin things of me
And I gotta answer myself
I replay conversations I can’t fix
Hear my own voice say the wrong shit
Wonder how many times I hurt someone
Just tryna survive my own head
Some nights I don’t sleep
I just lay there breathin, feelin my chest
Ask myself if this is all life is
Or if I missed somethin I was meant to get
I tried bein strong, tried bein numb
Tried pretendin I was over it
But pain don’t disappear when you ignore it
It just learn how to wait
Hook:
Why do we lie awake afraid of the things that bring us sorrow
How do we move on from things if the pain just makes us hollow
Why do we lie awake afraid of the things that bring us sorrow
How do we move on from things if the pain just makes us hollow
I see my parents in the mirror now
Same tired eyes, same heavy sighs
Guess this weight get passed down
Like a lesson nobody survives
I hold it together all day
Then fall apart when it’s safe
Smile for people who don’t know me
Break alone in my own space
I wish I could rewind one moment
Just to say what I really felt
Not for closure, not forgiveness
Just to know I tried to help
Bridge:
I don’t want to be perfect
I just wanna be okay
I don’t need the pain to leave forever
Just give me a break
I been talkin to the ceiling like it might respond
Ask it why I still feel wrong when I did my best
I keep lookin for a sign in the quiet parts
Like maybe I missed you when I needed help
I think about the kid I was before the weight
Before I learned how to swallow everything
I wonder if God'll recognize the man I am
Or if he'll ask me what I did with all my dreams
I don’t need the world to fix me now
I just need somethin to hear me say
That I’m tired, that I’m scared, that I’m tryin still
That I don’t know how much longer I can stay this way
If you’re out there, I don’t need a voice
I don’t need the sky to break apart
Just one moment where it don’t feel so heavy
Just one night where I don’t feel this far
Hook:
Why do we lie awake afraid of the things that bring us sorrow
How do we move on from things
If the pain just makes us hollow
