[Verse 1]
Dark tabs
On the browser
Cold hands
On the mouse
Every thought gets louder
As the room blacks out
Click bait
In my bloodstream
Red text
On a screen
I trace the worst-case scenes
Like it makes me free
[Pre-Chorus]
I flirt with the edge
Just to feel in control
Name every fear
’til it’s losing its hold
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be the monster in my head
I just wanna feel alive
Not painted red
Stare into the urge ’til it blinks
Backs down
I’ll wear the crown
For trigger discipline
Discipline
I chain the villain
Villain in
I don’t need that blood to know my power now
[Verse 2]
Shocked nerves
At the crosswalk
Heart drums
In my chest
Every stranger a question mark
I keep in check
Write plans
I will never touch
Scratch them
Out in ink
Tear pages ’til my fingers cut
Just to make me think
[Pre-Chorus]
I dance with the thought
’cause I like feeling strong
But I’m strongest of all
When I prove it wrong
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be the monster in my head
I just wanna feel alive
Not painted red
Stare into the urge ’til it blinks
Backs down
I’ll wear the crown
For trigger discipline
Discipline
I chain the villain
Villain in
I don’t need that blood to know my power now
[Bridge]
(hey)
If I can build it up
I can break it apart
Rip out the fantasy
Root
Vein
Heart
Turn that hunger
Into armor on my skin
Let the darkest part of me
Guard the light within
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be the monster in my head
I just wanna feel alive
Not painted red
Stare into the urge ’til it blinks
Backs down
I’ll wear the crown
For trigger discipline
Discipline
I chain the villain
Villain in
I don’t need that blood to know my power now