[Verse 1]
I been scrollin’ through my past like receipts
Every name another flame I deleted
You say “talk to me,” I say “I’m fine”
But my jaw locked tight
Heart on airplane mode, I don’t reply
Missed calls from my own reflection
Duck the mirror like it’s askin’ questions
Why every win feel half as good
Every loss hit twice as hard
Why I pray and still feel misunderstood
[Pre-Chorus]
You touch my shoulder, say
“Boy, you’re here, not broken”
But I been sleepwalkin’ days
Heart heavy, eyes open
[Chorus]
I’m halfway to the drop, still bracin’ for impact
Holdin’ on to you like you the seatback
If I fall apart, will you rewind me
Say you’ll stay right here, say you’ll still find me
I’m halfway to the drop, chest cavin’ and eyes shut
All this pressure in my lungs when the bass cuts
If I lose myself inside this shock
Will you catch me at the top
I’m halfway to the drop
[Verse 2]
I keep laughin’ at the wrong damn time
Cover up the quake movin’ under my spine
You say “breathe with me,” count in four
But my ribs sound off
Like they knockin’ from a locked-up door
I got ghosts in my phone as contacts
We don’t talk, we just watch each other’s broadcast
You say love ain’t something you perform
It’s dishes in the sink
It’s your name savin’ me from the storm
[Pre-Chorus]
You pull me closer, say
“Let it crash, stop copin’”
If I break here in your arms
Is that what you were hopin’
[Chorus]
I’m halfway to the drop, still bracin’ for impact
Holdin’ on to you like you the seatback
If I fall apart, will you rewind me
Say you’ll stay right here, say you’ll still find me
I’m halfway to the drop, chest cavin’ and eyes shut
All this pressure in my lungs when the bass cuts
If I lose myself inside this shock
Will you catch me at the top
I’m halfway to the drop
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
I been runnin’ from the high
Scared of what comes after
Every peak I ever climbed
Came with broken ladders
[falsetto ad-libs]
But you lift my chin up, say
“Look around, you made it”
I been waitin’ for the crash
You been waitin’ just to save it
[Chorus]