I learned how to hide tears behind a bedroom door
Heard fighting through the walls, couldn’t take it anymore
Little kid with heavy eyes, tryin’ not to make a sound
Walkin’ through a broken house like a ghost that ain’t been found
Birthdays felt like normal days, no candles, no wishes made
Every time I needed love, somehow I just got blamed
Had to teach myself what comfort was at seventeen
‘Cause nobody around me ever knew what “safe” could mean
(Pre-Chorus)
So I grew up too fast
While everybody looked right past
The pain inside my chest
Yeah I carried all of that
(Chorus)
I raised myself when nobody cared
Built my heart up from the damage there
Taught myself how to survive the nights
When home never felt warm or right
They say family’s supposed to stay
But mine just pushed my soul away
Now I’m learning love ain’t supposed to hurt like that
I was just a kid… forced to grow up fast
(Verse 2)
I used to stare out windows dreamin’ someone’d rescue me
Someone who could look at me and finally see what I seen
‘Cause every word they threw would stick like scars beneath my skin
Made me feel so unwanted, like I’d never fit in
Now I overthink affection when somebody’s being kind
Still expect abandonment almost every single time
But there’s a fire in my chest they could never take away
After everything they did, I’m still standing here today
(Pre-Chorus)
Yeah I grew up too fast
Turned survival into habits
Learned to smile through the sadness
Even when my world collapsed
(Chorus)
I raised myself when nobody cared
Built my heart up from the damage there
Taught myself how to survive the nights
When home never felt warm or right
They say family’s supposed to stay
But mine just pushed my soul away
Now I’m learning love ain’t supposed to hurt like that
I was just a kid… forced to grow up fast
(Bridge)
Maybe one day I’ll believe
None of it was because of me
Maybe one day I’ll let go
Of every shadow I still hold
But for now I wear these scars
Like proof I made it through the dark
(Final Chorus)
Yeah I raised myself when nobody tried
Held my own heart every night I cried
And even though they made me feel alone
I found the strength to build my own home
Now I know love can be soft and safe
Not every hand is meant to break
And I survived every moment of my past
Even when I had to grow up fast.